I Realised.

It just dawned on me that... I cant stay like this forever.

I would like to apologize for going off the track, unable to control this elation.
And how stupid of me to let my desires and wishes take over my mind.

Luckily my heart remains true.

I realised that i have been unconsciously pushing this matter too forward. So...

I shall go back to what i set in my mind when i 1st came to Swinburne.
Indifference.

Only then i can bring this matter back to where it was.

I won't be moving forward, nor backwards.
I shall let my heart take control over my footsteps, to where i belong.
And watch from behind.

And i shall learn something from that. Something, new.