Discretion to Decision

Are alot of people getting married lately? =D Well maybe some hehe.. Later tonight going to attend a wedding dinner of... of... my grandfather's.. err my mother's... Hmm oh well my relative in short. I've got a good feeling it would be fun since i hadn't been to TheBanquet for a long time -sighs-

Oh well next friday i will have freedom! I don't mean that i don't have it now, i am having lotsa freedom now =) Its just that i will be having overflowing freedom for a week XP And so im declaring an open house on 5th-11th of June. *hinting someone who knows what i mean* kekeke

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There are now woven threads scattered around. I wonder what will be the story behind those woven threads when i connect them. But an insinuating telltale is very intricate to empathize. There was once a time i wanted to bring all fragments of the story together, but now i affirm that it is not the right time. Pieces are not supposed to be mended all at a time; as wounds could not all heal at a time. They should be done gradually, understanding the whole piece one by one as a complete picture will start to form gradually.

*
* And now, i just can't decide whether being ignorant or innocent is bliss. *

Fragments of Dreams - 夢の欠片

There are no miracles in this world
there are only inevitabilities and accidents,
and what u want to do.

but sometimes the outcome of your action,
which become inevitable,
will overlap with accidents,
and fulfill your dream unexpectedly.

n.o.t.h.i.n.g. will happen if you don't wish for it

Do you have memories you don't want to forget?
忘れたくない想い　いますか？

Everyone has prayed to God at least once
even though they might not believe,
one day they will surely make an honest prayer.

Something that is everyone looking for,
something that is everyone looking after.
something that's created from everyone's continuous wishes and the bonds between them.

Dream.

Put your wishes into the memories you don't want to forget.
忘れたくない想いに願いを込めて。

Yume no Kakera - 夢の欠片

Ef~a tale of memories~ 第十二章

Lost, and Found.

For a while i thought that things lost can never be found.
I was proven wrong.

If we still have hope, there is always something we can achieve.

And i even prepared myself to accept the fact that i lost my external harddisk, but it was found. Although it had been a week since i lost it, i didn't think that sending email to every users in swinburne through blackboard will work out well. So... well, things turn out okay.

There is still kindness in this world, is you believe.

There can be miracles, if you believe.

Things that are lost, can be found.

*Weeeeee~~~ ...*

Sick.

Im sick.

Not sick of someone, not sick of something.

Just sick.

Cough.

Sick.

Don't remind me.

Don't remind me, of that word.
Don't remind me, of that name.
Don't remind me, of that person.

How astonishing that words can turn out to be a name, and a name can turn out be be a significant certain someone.

Looking at letters that somehow lie there dead and immobile somewhat wavers the shape of my heart. I can choose not to be regretting, coz im not sulking for what that i did not succeed. For why...? Maybe its just that there is other chances out there. Nobody always gets a smooth walking path, as there shall be stones and pebbles that hinder the way. As the saying says "Failure is a stepping stone to success" is the light that guide us through life, and of course failures. If we know how to accept them, we will know what to do.

But i do not know what to do. So does that mean i did not accept my failure? But i somehow believed that i accepted some time ago... If i can go back in time, i would surely change something. Something, for sure. For the me in the was a complete failure, the current me should be able to do something. The present would be so different if the past was different from the current past.

Dont remind me, of love.

Flamesy

Fire at 4 & 1/2 mile!! Haha fetching my bro to tuition and saw this cool thing. *Eh hem* sorry, not cool.

The fire made the jam >_> and so many bystanders *eh hem those kepo people*

Opssie im also kepo i took photos *spare me XD*

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Feel like exercising lately... Been so lazy.. and now i can't wait to watch all those movies i have now =D And i still have not been able to meet BongBong and Fany... -Sighs- Hope can really meet during this year's Kuching Festival... I have a year's story to tell. Sort of...

To SRC

Deep in my heart, i hope that day will never come.

What day? I ask.
What day? U ask.

Is it the day of parting? Or the day of meeting?

I definitely will not be able to bear the feelings of being in those moments.

For why?

I don't know. Maybe...


PS:
*You are the one i can't face the most in this world.*

Permai Trip 18-19 April 2009

When we reached permai...

The sea !! Natsukashi... I love the sea <3

OMG! Frank is stripping into.... into.... Boxers! HAHA

Me and Alison then found this... *Takara* (Treasure) So pretty~

I cant stop laughing when they did this.. One of the best laugh LOLS

Then we expanded the hole and stuck someone in it! XD

Sort of like... RIP? =D

Aha! One of our best work at the beach! The DAM!

See we actually change the course of nature... Or something like that.. Cool huh?

Omg and then a little water snake came along to visit our dam...

He looks dangerous, so we threw sand bombs at it ! *Fire in the hall!*

This was this morning earlier on... We wanted to see the sunrise together.. the 29 of us..

Well in the end only KK, Gary, Alison and I managed to get our ass at the beach at 6.

Sadly there the sunrise was blocked by the mountain, so we resumed our sleep =D

After breakfast they went for kayaking!!

Totemo tanoushi kana... Looks so much fun rite... I dint get a chance, but maybe next time *wink*

Random shot before going home~

I found mr. Crabby =) So cute...

*

And i think... i found a crave for Cameras... Good cameras actually make a difference when taking pictures. I probably awakened the liking for taking pictures lately =D Due the the people around me who kept taking good pictures @_@

Till then.. till then.

Inspiration.

You need to go back to the beginning if you want to get inspiration to keep going. Your past can hold the key to your future, so always look back and reflect. Remember back where we were enthusiastic about where we were going in life? The passion is still there, and we just have to dig down deep enough to find it!

Motives can be lost at certain times, but can always be retrieved. Doing something requires personal interest for perfection. I might have lost several motives and goals, but i will not let go of the inspiration which keeps me going. For now, i think my mind will not go astray.

Hopefully i can get out of this maze as soon as possible without getting lost.
Can I...?
Ya, i think so.

Collection Update

ANIME

Akane-iro ni Somaru Saka (COMPLETE 12/12)
Angel Tales
Beyblade
Boku wa Imouto ni Koi o Suru
Chobits
Chronicles Of The Wings
Clannad
Clannad ~After Story~
Crescent Love (COMPLETE 12/12)
Da Capo
EF ~ A Tale of Memories ~
EF ~ A Tale of Melodies ~
Final Approach (COMPLETE 13/13)
Ichigo 100%
Jigoku Shoujo ~Mitsuganae~
Kaze no Stigma
Kanokon (4/12)
Kimi ga nozomu Eien
KimiKiss -Pure Rouge- (COMPLETE 24/24)
Kissxsis (COMPLETE 1/1)
La Corda D'Oro
Lucky Star
Maria+Holic
Maria Watches Over Us S1
Maria Watches Over Us S2 ~Haru~
Maria Watches Over Us S3 OVA (COMPLETE 5/5)
Maria Watches Over Us S4 (COMPLETE 13/13)
Midori no Hibi
Nogizaka Haruka no Himitsu
Ragnarok The Animation
REC
Saiunkoku Monogatari
Seto no Hanayome (COMPLETE 26/26)
Shakugan no Shana Season1
Shakugan no Shana Season2
School Days (COMPLETE 12/12)
Shounen Onmyouji
Shuffle!
Special A (COMPLETE 24/24)
To Heart
Toradora (COMPLETE 25/25)
True Tears (COMPLETE 13/13)
Zero no Tsukaima (COMPLETE 13/13)
Zero no Tsukaima -Futatsuki no Kishi- (COMPLETE 12/12)
Zero no Tsukaima -Princess no Rondo- (COMPLETE 12/12)


DRAMA

Densha Otoko (3/11)
Hana Yori Dango
Honey And Clover
Nodame Cantabile (COMPLETE 11/11)
Proposal Daisakusen (COMPLETE 11/11)

Door of miracles?

The door of miracles.

They always exist, just that we never noticed.
The key to the door of miracles, lie in our hearts.

Ask, and it shall be given.
Seek, and it shall be found.
Knock, and it shall be opened.

*Quote from Proposal Daisakusen Finale*

Knock knock at your heart;

knock knock at my heart

*

**

***

**

*

Anybody home...?

*+ the sound of door opening... +*

Window Glass

Our hearts is like a house.
A house, with rooms.
Rooms, either vacant or occupied.

There are rooms that are full or even overloading...
The room which we keep our friends.

Yet...

There are rooms that are empty.
We added the extra room for someone,

and wishes to invite them to our heart.
But, there is no that someone to live in there
and leaves a hole in the heart...

You're still on the other side of the room,
Between you and me
And what separates us,
Is a transparent wall, a glass window
which turns foggy with my crystallized sighs...

The window glass
so obscure that i cannot see you
even though i know that you are right there
whether you're laughing, or crying...
I just want you to show me your face

No matter how hard i try to wipe the glass from my side,
The glass from your side will still be clouded...

So please... Look at the glass from your side too...
Wipe the glass window from your side too...

爱河

有人曾经问我，
* "喜欢心悦对象的哪一点...?"
# "哪一点... 长相? 聪明... 能干..."
* "也就是说... 只看表面咯?"

能够具体的回答喜欢的哪一点, 就不是真正的爱情.

真正的爱情, 是当你注意到的时候, 你会发现自己不能没有她;
是无法单纯用言语回答出喜欢的哪一点.

...
但就像初雪堆积不起来一样,
初恋通常也都不会有结果.

也许, 我们的确不应该喜欢上名花有主的; 或有花名主...
...

不过, 我终于知道...
我一定很喜欢沉浸在爱河中的女生.

因为沉浸在爱河中的女生, 看起来都很耀眼...

而

沉浸在爱河中的男孩...
看起来会不会也很耀眼呢...?

我希望... 有一天
一定会让*你*变得 更 耀眼.

Life Code Translation

I've been watching lots of romance genre animes lately. There has been much inspiration, or motivation, or logic in a sense. But thats not the point, the point is the fact of figuring something out.

There are 3 elements, which are related, and are not related in any way.

Distance, Time, Surroundings

Distance is always a confusing element. People tend to calculate things and situation depending on distance. This distance mentioned represents a symbol, for uncountable circumstances; and we normally exploit this word to describe our situation. But, it is wrong. We can not describe things by just distance alone. Distance is scalar, and it applies to the fields we intend to use it. Take note - use Displacement. Either in measuring reality or fantasy. Then you'll always find your way home.

Time is confusing in another perspective. It cannot be so easily perceived akin to distance. Time is everlasting, and it revolves around our Surroundings. Every point of time or moment has an unnoticeable significance. That is why we always mislooked or missed out things at certain times of life. Time is neither scalar nor vector, it is immeasureable. Yet, it holds an ultimate importance that once change shall alter the course of direction, and it applies to the destination too.

Surroundings is both the element of time and space. We live our live on, but we never thought about how others live theirs. Each entity that exists on this planet has a story of its own, and one that strangers can't tell. If this is conprehended then we shall discover the mysteries of alienship that actually exist in our planet. One may be standing next to you, but you never know the past, present and future of that. Every single being is moving on, travelling on a course of its own, an enigma for augury.


When we combine various elements of life, we acknowledge the meaning behind it. So know our destination, know our situation, and head towards our dream...

&

Never give up.

Melting, not Rotting?

One of the main background display picture for my previous blogpage had whatever bandwidth problems, so i had to resolve to changing a new blog template =) Looks nicer right? Well we humans keep improving mwahahaha~ Things that revolve around us also change, for the better ^^

Borrowed many anime burned into discs from Eugene @@ True Tears is definitely a good play! Erm.. although i did not shed any tear on the outside, my heart was crying inside TT Haha jkjk to be precise it is a very touching anime =P *Recommended* Alright.. now "Maria Watches Over Us Season 3" & "Nodame Cantabile Season 2" is next on my watch list hehehe...

Oh my goodness im actually having a test tomorrow. And i spent the whole day sitting here and finished watching True Tears... sob sob its soooo irresistable... =(

And now.. Its like my heart is melting... and i dont know what to do... I think i'll probably seek guidance from the stars above... probably...

Ocean Size Love

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between, needs our attention
I see you right in front of me, as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave, this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry any more
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection
I see you right in front of me, a vision in my head
And I know this is as real, as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

You make no sound, but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends, like the sea, like you for me

And it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love
And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

Oh, oh...

Ocean Size Love

Leigh Nash

Taggg

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name.

1. Own name: Gerald

2. Four-lettered word: *Gulp*

3. A boy's name: Gilbert

4. A girls name: Gen

5. An occupation: Golfing

6. A colour: Gray

7. Something you'll wear: Gold o.o

8. Food: Gourmet XD

9. Something found in the bathroom: xxx

10. A place: Germany

11. A reason for being late: Gaming or Gabbling

12. Something you'd shout: Gam lin arh !!

13. A movie title: Ghostbusters!

14. Something you'd drink: Gin Sling

15. A musical group: xxx

16. An animal: Gorilla! Wuh wuh wuh..

17. A street's name: xxx

18. A type of car: Oh yes! Gen-2!! (Thought for so long dammit)

19. The title of a song: Green Light (John Legend)

20. Tag 5 people: Xiang, Fany, Esther, Bryan, Alison...?

Forgive me for my indolence in getting ideas for things that start with G. Its just too rare to find things that start with G. Sob sob TT I should try A.. V.. or C.. Hmm... Oh well im done! =P

まだ愛して．．．か？

時として記憶は

心を縛る

しかし，　心は

新しい出会いによって

解き放ったれ

そして，　今
飛び立っていく

未来へ。

僕は：　“あなたはバカ．．．！”
君は：　“誰がバカだ．．．？”

でも．．．　

私はまだあなたを愛しています．．．

shh... ね？

Nodame Cantabile

A romantic melody that emanates from two different people that got together and eventually harmonises with each other. A wonderful romance Japanese drama! *Recommended!!!*

*Ps: My favourite drama ATM hehehe..


Drama name: Nodame Cantabile [のだめカンタービレ]
Casts:
Main actor aka Chiaki Shinichi [Tamaki Hiroshi]
Main actress aka Noda Megumi [Ueno Juri]

Nodame plays the piano, Chiaki is versatile in piano and violin but he wants to become a conductor. May the love showdown begin! Heee =)

And now im inspired and motivated! Yeeha~ Piano, here i come XP

Gyabo !!!

貴方の為に生きてくれ…

今私,　ここに坐っている
そして何かが思ってる
君はきっとわからない
ほんの一瞬で何が起こるのか

全て起源の為に
それは私が愛し始めたときに始まった

今君，　そこに坐っている
そして何も気遣わないで
私はきっと待ってない
ほんの一瞬で何が消えるのか

あなたの傷わ治したか?
そうならいいですね…

私を忘れないで、
いい?