너를 사랑하니까

이젠 한국말를 진짜 좋아해요, 한국 다 사랑해요!

내가 한국어 공부하고 잘할께요...

내 소원은 한국에 가고싶어, 내가 너무너무 사랑하는 소녀시대의 윤아를 보고싶어!

이 세상이 멈춰 일전에, 하고싶은 일이 하고싶어!

만약에 사랑을 못 찾으면, 그리도 좋겠다.

내 첫사랑이 멀리에 있는데, 맘속에 언제나 있었어...

난, 그대를 절대 잊지 수 않아요. 왜?

너와 내 마음이 사슬로 맸다하니까.

너에게 누구나보다 내가 더 사랑하니까.

I Alone

Please just pass by pretending not knowing me
Please don't even glance at me
On breezy storms like this
Don't offer anything to me

I've closed up my only heart
and I've hidden my only tear
Just like a stranger you've seen for the first time
Just pass by, you have to...

I alone spoke of love
and gave love away
My tears overlap while piling up my memories
Even though you're far away, please be happy
I will bury my love within the depths of my heart

Even though it hurts, even though it will hurt
I will never cry
This is not goodbye for the love in my heart
Even if this life ends, in the next world we,
surely will love again, we will surely love.

(나 혼자서, 소녀시대의-티파니)

First Love 初恋 Hatsukoi Cheotsarang

每个人随着爱情成长， 一步一步地， 慢慢学会重要和不可忽略的小小资料。。 听说， 男人无法放开他的初恋， 女人无法放开她的最后的爱。 说初恋是说初恋， 但是初恋可分两种。。。 第一种就是那些初次相遇而两情相悦的人， 他们永远不能了解单方恋的感受； 而另一种就是那些死都遇不到两情相悦的人， 只能默默的守候和暗恋， 也永远不能了解那些轻而易举找到真爱的人的感受。

也许， 这些都是上天的安排。。 不该得到的就不会得到， 时间到了就会到的简单理由。

况且， 初恋毕竟占据那么重大的位置， 心中还会有空位让给别人么？ 破例的说， 如果就有那么小小的位置让别人住进， 初恋占的地区大胜于渺小空位， 逼着他人搬家出走。 每个在不同时间来的新租客， 都会被取与初恋比较， 当然初恋胜多于少， 那放着的空间的用处毕竟到底是啥。。。？

如果没办法把初恋搬出， 那能进来的租客愈少。。。 但是人心能像口中说出的那样每次照搬和信口开河吗？ 所谓口是心非， 说忘记， 但是其实自己最清楚。

现在我深爱过的初恋已不在此地， 但也无能为力。。。 可是心爱的人开心， 无论在何处， 肯定这所为爱的人也无比地开心。

あなたは絶対幸せになるよ！　絶対にね。。。

먼곳에 있어도, 그대 행복하길...

Till death do feelings shall not parT

Sometimes, we are afraid to love.
Because...
The deeper we love, the harder for us to bear the pain of its loss.

Conflict, hatred, sadness and pain.
That which allows one to savor them all...
That is ~love~.

Through love, we learn true joy and happiness despite the predicaments we have to face.

Even though we might not own it at last, we will still feel it is all worth it. <3

Tired 疲れた

It's tiring to take on many matters at once, we humans are not able to multitask heavily. Our brain might break down! But for me i think it's hard to breath with all that's going on. I also mean its physically hard to breath *cough* =_=

There are many birthdays impending, but this is an 'okay' matter. But with the pressure of 3 assignments due after this mid-term semester break, i think i'm going to break down soon. Looks like the only way out is to pray that everything will work out well...

I am feeling lazy, though i am naturally lazy, i feel like being lazy for now. Maybe rest is what i need for the moment, but time is pressing against me... So there is no choice. I totally SOUND contradicting and i FEEL crazy.

Yea, i know that myself.

Love <3

Love is a mysterious thing.
It has many effects on our lives, good or bad.

Love.

It is what builds us, but hurts us.
It is what mends us, but breaks us.

But, because of Love, we learn and grow.

Because of the harmonies and ordeals it gives us, we acknowledge true feelings in the end.

With it, we are whole.

Relaxation

Just finished watching 10episodes of Taiyou no Uta(タイヨウのうた)　A Song To The Sun..

Another tear-jerking drama starred by Erika Sawajiri(Kaoru Amane) sugoku cute girl desu yo!!! Editing server codes has been exhausting, and a romantic touching drama is the best way to relax :D

We should all take breaks once in a while :) But there are times we should be serious too! Oh well... I know that applies to me hehe... I will try to work harder from now on!

Okay now to plan for plans... Once there is motivation, direction is before you. V(^^)V

Ganbatte Ikimasshoi !

RO Private

Currently in Devising and Planning Stage........

Ragnarok Online Private Server.

It had always been my dream to create an ideal server without corruption and prejudice.
A new desktop around 1500-2000 will be considered for Hosting the server as my old comp made of "rock" will surely be impossible to host. Website i'll leave to my friends to design it as i will be busy getting down to backstage codings.

Hopefully things will go smoothly during Implementation stage.

Amen. <3

Separation and Migration

Ok from now on this will be my English blog =D while the other is my Japanese blog.

I think separating it would be a good idea ^^

But i will giving more attention towards the other blog so.... >@<

九月三日 （木曜日）

昨日と今日。。。　ただ普通の日々。

でも。。。　もう一時間ぐらいは。。。　＊あの子＊　の誕生日ですよ。。。
けれど、　俺が出来る事は有りません。。。

せめて彼女に　"誕生日おめでとう"　を言いたい。。。

"絶対幸せに成ってください"　を言いたい。。。

そして、　そしてたくさんの言いたい事があるけど。。。

何時までも、　ずっと彼女に届かない。　

私の心の深い深い処から、　その言葉を。

To: ******
心から、　これはあなたにお祈りですよ
～お誕生日、　おめでとうございます。～

Happy 19th Birthday!!!

*Speaking of that... there are many birthdays recently aren't there...*

九月一日 (火曜日)

今日は月初め～　Usability の委譲の締め切りは今月の下旬です。　
でも絶対。。。　何とか成るさ～？

本とに疲れた。。。

今したい事は無い。

この瞬間、　俺は急に体を惜しむ。　如何して怠け者に成った？　この態度を治すの方法があるのかな。。。

八月三十一日 （月曜日）

今日は我の国の建国記念日～ でも慶び無かった　=P

私には、　ただ一つ休日だけ。。。

昨日、　何も出来なかった。

ただちょっと Game を遊んでした。

明日から。。。　俺絶対。。。

八月二十九日 （土曜日）

今日は Chung の誕生日です！　おめでとう～　=D

俺とHsien, Liang とHui が買った贈り物は１つ *Custom Made Mug* でした～
それは凄く良い Design 、　綺麗な　Mug なのに。。。
俺前にあの双子の　Christmas Present を買った時。。。　そして今度の創った Design。。。
今度のほうが以前より綺麗 design を描いた～

Chilax に行ってました、　あの場所で、　Cally と　Wee Ting　そしてあの二人の仲間達が出会った。

その上、　幾つかの美人を見ました～　へへへ～

其れだけと思います。。。

お休みなさい。　良い夢を～

八月二十八日 （金曜日）

今。。。　自分が自分の日本の名前を選ぶ。

何がいいかな。。。？

俺には、　Yuuki がいい Romaji の名前です。
Kanji に関して事は、　たくさんの選択肢があります。

例えば。。。　
１．夕希　夕生　夕喜
２．悠希　悠生　悠喜
３．優希　優生　優喜
４．由希　由生　由喜　由紀

どちらがいいですか。。。？

多分、　私は　～夕希～　其れとも　～悠生～　を選んで。

如何？

八月二十七日 （木曜日）

毎日毎日、　毎週毎週の出来た事
相変わらず見たい。。。

宿題がある、　でもまだ始まった。
毎日
自分が自分で日本語を勉強します、　それはとても楽しい事です。

今までまだ運命の人をめぐり合った、　でも私は決して諦めない！

ずっと君が現れるの日を待ってます～

お久し振り

えと。。。　どのくらいかかるましたか？
一月位でしたね。。。

あなたがこの街を出て行った、　でも俺何も出来なかった。
あの時は俺と君の今生の別れかも知れませんでした。。。
しかし。。。　如何して俺は力何て、　勇気何て、　見つけたありませんでした。。。？

心が辛い事まだ感じますだけど、　今僕は何とか元気です。

将来の色んな事、　俺には、　絶対万難を排する！　
何故なら。。。　君は私の最初そして最高の困った問題ですよ。

僕は今すぐ、　君に会いたい。。。

あそこ元気だね。。。？

19 is my number =)

Oh well a dinner at my cousin's house and suddenly 2 cakes poofed out of nowhere and they started singing birthday songs for me and my uncle @_@


Wishing.. damn they didn't give me enough time to think what i wanna wish for..


Then its time to blow the candles =_= Btw i love the kiwi its soooooo Sweet&Sour XP


?! What's this?! Just a random picture oh well =]

METHOD_METAFALICA/.

METHOD_METAFALICA/.
Ar Tonelico II Hymmnos Lyrics

y.y. eh tyuss vl omness,
I'm being healed by the kind gaze

sev x. rre yorr s.l.y. nafan mea/.
you have when you show kindness to me

y.z.t. za rre vega Efs t.k.d. ag zz t.k.d. tie hartes yor/.
Even if it's impossible, I wish that this whisper would reach you, my beloved person

s.l.y. yor sev x. rre yorr g.v.w. en x.y.n.,
When I see you causing harm and battling

ag a.u.k. zess x.y.n. mea/.
I feel like if I was causing harm myself

y.z.t. za rre vega merfa l.n.c.a. ag zz l.n.c.a. tie hartes yor/.
Even if it's impossible, I wish that this pure wish would connect us, my beloved person

wEwYEjEnc yor en mYEtYAyEy hymmnos ut eje/.
When we met, I created a song in my heart

xE rre govan en wefa sarla fEwErEn du dje/.
And its excited and warm melody began to flow inside my body

Ah, wEwYEjLYEnc syalea en zz kvvia/.
Ah, I don't regret having met you

hEkEtEt merfa tie yor en hYAmLYAmr METAFALICA!
I shall joyfully embrace the pure wishes you gave me, and for the sake of this world, and you, I shall sing the Metafalica!

xA sorr dArsn sarla vl shen/.
That´s the song of the ancient legends

xA sorr aAuk mutrk rhaplanca en Implanta/.
The warm story of Rhaplanca and the great tree of God, Implanta

xU rre vege dgal aUuk zz papana/.
In that land, where the blessing of rain never fell

xU sorr Asphaela_hiral ag Adoodu_urgn/.
That thirsty world and that grieving land

xU rre qejyu ssvid hiralg ag xevxl/.
Where the people were living in thirst and despair

幽けき　深淵の底 (kasokeki shin'en no soko)
Secluded in a deep abyss

聴こえ来るは　深き息吹 (kikoe kuru wa fukaki ibuki)
Listen to the deep breath that comes out

来たれや　開かれし刻 (kitare ya hirakareshi toki)
Come, it's the time to be free

全て捨てて　この身は謳になる (subete sutete kono mi wa uta ni naru)
Throwing away everything, I shall turn myself into a song

謳は胸を溢れて (uta wa mune o afurete)
The song floods my heart

地に渓に湖に満てる (chi ni tani ni mizuumi ni miteru)
Filling the valleys, the lakes, and the land

やがて生いし木は深く (yagate oishi ki wa fukaku)
Soon, the tree that grows from the deeps

土に根ざし大地　抱く (tsuchi ni nezashi daichi idaku)
Shall embrace this land with it´s roots

hYAmmrA cEzE hymmnos ceku/.
I will sing for your sake, and gladly turn into a song for my companions.

愛しき大地 一歩　靭く　踏みしめ (itoshiki daichi ippou tsuyoku fumishime)
Together, with this beloved land, I will take a soft step

揺るがずにただ 進む　この脚で (yurugazu ni tada susumu kono ashi de)
In a unshaken step, I will advance, with only my feet

踏みしめられた 足跡　繋がり行く (fumishimerareta ashiato tsunagari yuku)
I stepped firmly to connect our footprints

歩みの軌跡 記す　ひとつずつ (ayumi no kiseki shirusu hitotsuzutsu)
I will note down each and every locus of our walking

xA rre rhaplanca tAnYAmAnLYE poe ess gkgul doodu/.
From the top reaches of this cracked land, Rhaplanca scatters the seeds

xE rre poe hAwAss ut varda
These seeds mature into great trees

ag wArEl du cia dn ryewa keg/.
and set their sights in spreading their branches to the skies

尊き世界 この腕に抱きしめ (tattoki sekai kono ude ni dakishime)
I will embrace this precious world with my arms

仰ぎし天よ ひとつ この胸に　誓う (aogishi sora yo hitotsu kono mune ni chikau)
Looking up to the sky, I make a pledge in my heart

xA rre rhaplanca wAsLYA jue tie Aarhou_poe ess doodu/.
Rhaplanca gives water to the seeds of hope that were planted

xE rre pikca r.w. du qejyu/.
The seeds mature into fruits that save the people

xA rre rhaplanca yYAzLYEt za rre varda rYAwLYE du qejyu/.
And Rhaplanca makes true her wish of growing a tree to help the people

この願い 眩き未来　刻まん (kono negai mabaki mirai kizaman)
My wishes will engrave the dazzling future

想いの奇蹟 遠く　どこまでも　響けや (omoi no kiseki tooku doko made mo hibike ya)
But how far the miracle of feelings shall resound?

xA rre mao wYAwLYAjnc Amerfa_rhaplanca/.
When Maoh met her, he also learned of her pure wishes

xA rre mao yAzYAt za rre Amerfa_has/.
Maoh wished to be able to fulfill her pure wishes

xA rre mao yAzYAt en yAzYAt za rre arhou rYAlLYAtAy ess qejyu/.
Their wishes revived the hope in the hearts of the people

Too Late Forever

初恋KPPへ:

I'm already too late. I was too late. I always had been too late.

When i finally gathered up the courage, it is already not the same. This time i shall lose my chances for good. Even though i had to admit i wanted to see you for the VERY last time in my life, i couldn't.

You left, whilst i stayed. But i might leave too in the future, who knows, by chance the same place you went.

And now, time and distance will be intervening for a long period. Maybe i will get the chance again, once i leave this grounds; or shall you return to this grounds.

And perhaps when that time comes, i'll be ready. To do what i failed to do.

But... I think i still will never get the courage to see you, and you will slip out of my reach yet again. Yet, i never regretted cause this is what i foreseen...

From the day i first met you.

謹言：
ジェッラド

Winner, or Loser..?

*
In love: You lose if you fall for the other person.
You're supposed to make the other person fall in love in you.
*

Do you truly believe that life has winners and losers in the first place?
Isn't thinking about victory or defeat itself an indicator of defeat?

You feel sad when you part with the one you love,
because you love them;
Or you should not fall in love in order to not feel sad?

If you fall in love with them, then you get hurt;
If they fall in love with you, then you don't.

*
But sometimes in love: Having feelings for another person,
automatically makes you the winner.
*

No matter how much you treasure something,
all things will eventually perish.
Bonds, feelings, memories, hearts and life.
Everything in this world eventually perishes, and breaks.

Things aren't about winning or losing.
It's not about entering a competition you know u can't win or lose.

Happiness is just artificial, fictional, and fake.
That is why...

Lets cherish it.

Quoted from Ef ~A Tale of Melodies~