Almost

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I shoulda made you my bop boy
Yes that's one time I shoulda broke the rules
I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into
If it happend now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you

비명

가슴속에 소리 지른다. 아무도 듣진 않아도 그렇게 할래.. 왜? 왜냐고? 그거라면, 추억에 잠겨서 많은 일 생각했더라.. 무슨일? 그래.. 나의 사랑 이야기.

얘기 다 하면 너무 긴 시간을 필요하니까, 잛게 해야겠지.

나, 실수 많이 했다. 반응도 많이 안 좋고.. 사랑하는 사람에게.. 하필 틀린 반응과, 말과, 미소를 했단말이야.. 그것보다, 지금 이순간 잘 보면, 나 고백이라는 짓도 못 했네.. 진짜.., 때로 나도 나 자신을 모른다.

"사랑해", 이렇게 간단한 한마디도 못했냐고? 응, 내가 그랬어. 그래서 지금 왜 고백 안 했냐고 나도 나한테 물고싶다.

과거를 보니까, 배운것도 많아.. 많으니까, 앞으로 실수를 안할도록 그렇게 하겠다.. 후회를 안 할도록 하겠어.. 지금처럼 후회하는 이만큼.

미치겠다!!!!! 소리지르고싶은데.. 저 하늘위로 별빛이 있나 달빛이 있나.. 아님 햇빛이 있나? 따뜻한 빛도 있고, 편안하게한 빛도 있고. 슬픔을 모두다 지워버릴수있는 빛이. 찾을까? 찾아야지.. 그 빛은 구름뒤에 숨기고 있을지도 모르니까

찾아라!

그리고,

비명을 안 하도록, 행복을 -

찾아라.

오랜만이다

아주 오랜만이죠..?
이제는 한국말으로 말하고, 쓰기 기능은 많이 개선했지?

시간이 비처럼 흘러갔다.. 나 모르게..

지금, 사랑이란건 나한테 필요한 건가? 필요없는 건가?

나 잘 모르겠다. 하늘님에게, 운명을 맡기겠다.

나, 그냥 내 미래를 좀 더 잘 볼 수 있겠으면 좋겠다.

*마음의 사슬*

너를 사랑하니까

이젠 한국말를 진짜 좋아해요, 한국 다 사랑해요!

내가 한국어 공부하고 잘할께요...

내 소원은 한국에 가고싶어, 내가 너무너무 사랑하는 소녀시대의 윤아를 보고싶어!

이 세상이 멈춰 일전에, 하고싶은 일이 하고싶어!

만약에 사랑을 못 찾으면, 그리도 좋겠다.

내 첫사랑이 멀리에 있는데, 맘속에 언제나 있었어...

난, 그대를 절대 잊지 수 않아요. 왜?

너와 내 마음이 사슬로 맸다하니까.

너에게 누구나보다 내가 더 사랑하니까.

I Alone

Please just pass by pretending not knowing me
Please don't even glance at me
On breezy storms like this
Don't offer anything to me

I've closed up my only heart
and I've hidden my only tear
Just like a stranger you've seen for the first time
Just pass by, you have to...

I alone spoke of love
and gave love away
My tears overlap while piling up my memories
Even though you're far away, please be happy
I will bury my love within the depths of my heart

Even though it hurts, even though it will hurt
I will never cry
This is not goodbye for the love in my heart
Even if this life ends, in the next world we,
surely will love again, we will surely love.

(나 혼자서, 소녀시대의-티파니)

First Love 初恋 Hatsukoi Cheotsarang

每个人随着爱情成长， 一步一步地， 慢慢学会重要和不可忽略的小小资料。。 听说， 男人无法放开他的初恋， 女人无法放开她的最后的爱。 说初恋是说初恋， 但是初恋可分两种。。。 第一种就是那些初次相遇而两情相悦的人， 他们永远不能了解单方恋的感受； 而另一种就是那些死都遇不到两情相悦的人， 只能默默的守候和暗恋， 也永远不能了解那些轻而易举找到真爱的人的感受。

也许， 这些都是上天的安排。。 不该得到的就不会得到， 时间到了就会到的简单理由。

况且， 初恋毕竟占据那么重大的位置， 心中还会有空位让给别人么？ 破例的说， 如果就有那么小小的位置让别人住进， 初恋占的地区大胜于渺小空位， 逼着他人搬家出走。 每个在不同时间来的新租客， 都会被取与初恋比较， 当然初恋胜多于少， 那放着的空间的用处毕竟到底是啥。。。？

如果没办法把初恋搬出， 那能进来的租客愈少。。。 但是人心能像口中说出的那样每次照搬和信口开河吗？ 所谓口是心非， 说忘记， 但是其实自己最清楚。

现在我深爱过的初恋已不在此地， 但也无能为力。。。 可是心爱的人开心， 无论在何处， 肯定这所为爱的人也无比地开心。

あなたは絶対幸せになるよ！　絶対にね。。。

먼곳에 있어도, 그대 행복하길...

Till death do feelings shall not parT

Sometimes, we are afraid to love.
Because...
The deeper we love, the harder for us to bear the pain of its loss.

Conflict, hatred, sadness and pain.
That which allows one to savor them all...
That is ~love~.

Through love, we learn true joy and happiness despite the predicaments we have to face.

Even though we might not own it at last, we will still feel it is all worth it. <3

Tired 疲れた

It's tiring to take on many matters at once, we humans are not able to multitask heavily. Our brain might break down! But for me i think it's hard to breath with all that's going on. I also mean its physically hard to breath *cough* =_=

There are many birthdays impending, but this is an 'okay' matter. But with the pressure of 3 assignments due after this mid-term semester break, i think i'm going to break down soon. Looks like the only way out is to pray that everything will work out well...

I am feeling lazy, though i am naturally lazy, i feel like being lazy for now. Maybe rest is what i need for the moment, but time is pressing against me... So there is no choice. I totally SOUND contradicting and i FEEL crazy.

Yea, i know that myself.

Love <3

Love is a mysterious thing.
It has many effects on our lives, good or bad.

Love.

It is what builds us, but hurts us.
It is what mends us, but breaks us.

But, because of Love, we learn and grow.

Because of the harmonies and ordeals it gives us, we acknowledge true feelings in the end.

With it, we are whole.

Relaxation

Just finished watching 10episodes of Taiyou no Uta(タイヨウのうた)　A Song To The Sun..

Another tear-jerking drama starred by Erika Sawajiri(Kaoru Amane) sugoku cute girl desu yo!!! Editing server codes has been exhausting, and a romantic touching drama is the best way to relax :D

We should all take breaks once in a while :) But there are times we should be serious too! Oh well... I know that applies to me hehe... I will try to work harder from now on!

Okay now to plan for plans... Once there is motivation, direction is before you. V(^^)V

Ganbatte Ikimasshoi !

RO Private

Currently in Devising and Planning Stage........

Ragnarok Online Private Server.

It had always been my dream to create an ideal server without corruption and prejudice.
A new desktop around 1500-2000 will be considered for Hosting the server as my old comp made of "rock" will surely be impossible to host. Website i'll leave to my friends to design it as i will be busy getting down to backstage codings.

Hopefully things will go smoothly during Implementation stage.

Amen. <3

Separation and Migration

Ok from now on this will be my English blog =D while the other is my Japanese blog.

I think separating it would be a good idea ^^

But i will giving more attention towards the other blog so.... >@<

九月三日 （木曜日）

昨日と今日。。。　ただ普通の日々。

でも。。。　もう一時間ぐらいは。。。　＊あの子＊　の誕生日ですよ。。。
けれど、　俺が出来る事は有りません。。。

せめて彼女に　"誕生日おめでとう"　を言いたい。。。

"絶対幸せに成ってください"　を言いたい。。。

そして、　そしてたくさんの言いたい事があるけど。。。

何時までも、　ずっと彼女に届かない。　

私の心の深い深い処から、　その言葉を。

To: ******
心から、　これはあなたにお祈りですよ
～お誕生日、　おめでとうございます。～

Happy 19th Birthday!!!

*Speaking of that... there are many birthdays recently aren't there...*

九月一日 (火曜日)

今日は月初め～　Usability の委譲の締め切りは今月の下旬です。　
でも絶対。。。　何とか成るさ～？

本とに疲れた。。。

今したい事は無い。

この瞬間、　俺は急に体を惜しむ。　如何して怠け者に成った？　この態度を治すの方法があるのかな。。。

八月三十一日 （月曜日）

今日は我の国の建国記念日～ でも慶び無かった　=P

私には、　ただ一つ休日だけ。。。

昨日、　何も出来なかった。

ただちょっと Game を遊んでした。

明日から。。。　俺絶対。。。