Chains Of The Heart

오랜만이다

2011-04-03T22:56:00.002+08:00

아주 오랜만이죠..?
이제는 한국말으로 말하고, 쓰기 기능은 많이 개선했지?

시간이 비처럼 흘러갔다.. 나 모르게..

지금, 사랑이란건 나한테 필요한 건가? 필요없는 건가?

나 잘 모르겠다. 하늘님에게, 운명을 맡기겠다.

나, 그냥 내 미래를 좀 더 잘 볼 수 있겠으면 좋겠다.

*마음의 사슬*

너를 사랑하니까

2010-07-14T11:07:00.002+08:00

이젠 한국말를 진짜 좋아해요, 한국 다 사랑해요!

내가 한국어 공부하고 잘할께요...

내 소원은 한국에 가고싶어, 내가 너무너무 사랑하는 소녀시대의 윤아를 보고싶어!

이 세상이 멈춰 일전에, 하고싶은 일이 하고싶어!

만약에 사랑을 못 찾으면, 그리도 좋겠다.

내 첫사랑이 멀리에 있는데, 맘속에 언제나 있었어...

난, 그대를 절대 잊지 수 않아요. 왜?

너와 내 마음이 사슬로 맸다하니까.

너에게 누구나보다 내가 더 사랑하니까.

I Alone

2010-04-24T15:31:00.002+08:00

Please just pass by pretending not knowing me
Please don't even glance at me
On breezy storms like this
Don't offer anything to me

I've closed up my only heart
and I've hidden my only tear
Just like a stranger you've seen for the first time
Just pass by, you have to...

I alone spoke of love
and gave love away
My tears overlap while piling up my memories
Even though you're far away, please be happy
I will bury my love within the depths of my heart

Even though it hurts, even though it will hurt
I will never cry
This is not goodbye for the love in my heart
Even if this life ends, in the next world we,
surely will love again, we will surely love.

(나 혼자서, 소녀시대의-티파니)

First Love 初恋 Hatsukoi Cheotsarang

2010-04-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

每个人随着爱情成长，一步一步地，慢慢学会重要和不可忽略的小小资料。。听说，男人无法放开他的初恋，女人无法放开她的最后的爱。说初恋是说初恋，但是初恋可分两种。。。第一种就是那些初次相遇而两情相悦的人，他们永远不能了解单方恋的感受；而另一种就是那些死都遇不到两情相悦的人，只能默默的守候和暗恋，也永远不能了解那些轻而易举找到真爱的人的感受。

也许，这些都是上天的安排。。不该得到的就不会得到，时间到了就会到的简单理由。

况且，初恋毕竟占据那么重大的位置，心中还会有空位让给别人么？破例的说，如果就有那么小小的位置让别人住进，初恋占的地区大胜于渺小空位，逼着他人搬家出走。每个在不同时间来的新租客，都会被取与初恋比较，当然初恋胜多于少，那放着的空间的用处毕竟到底是啥。。。？

如果没办法把初恋搬出，那能进来的租客愈少。。。但是人心能像口中说出的那样每次照搬和信口开河吗？所谓口是心非，说忘记，但是其实自己最清楚。

现在我深爱过的初恋已不在此地，但也无能为力。。。可是心爱的人开心，无论在何处，肯定这所为爱的人也无比地开心。

あなたは絶対幸せになるよ！　絶対にね。。。

먼곳에 있어도, 그대 행복하길...

Till death do feelings shall not parT

2009-09-28T18:56:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, we are afraid to love.
Because...
The deeper we love, the harder for us to bear the pain of its loss.

Conflict, hatred, sadness and pain.
That which allows one to savor them all...
That is ~love~.

Through love, we learn true joy and happiness despite the predicaments we have to face.

Even though we might not own it at last, we will still feel it is all worth it. <3

Tired 疲れた

2009-09-27T21:40:00.002+08:00

It's tiring to take on many matters at once, we humans are not able to multitask heavily. Our brain might break down! But for me i think it's hard to breath with all that's going on. I also mean its physically hard to breath *cough* =_=

There are many birthdays impending, but this is an 'okay' matter. But with the pressure of 3 assignments due after this mid-term semester break, i think i'm going to break down soon. Looks like the only way out is to pray that everything will work out well...

I am feeling lazy, though i am naturally lazy, i feel like being lazy for now. Maybe rest is what i need for the moment, but time is pressing against me... So there is no choice. I totally SOUND contradicting and i FEEL crazy.

Yea, i know that myself.

Love <3

2009-09-19T15:34:00.003+08:00

Love is a mysterious thing.
It has many effects on our lives, good or bad.

Love.

It is what builds us, but hurts us.
It is what mends us, but breaks us.

But, because of Love, we learn and grow.

Because of the harmonies and ordeals it gives us, we acknowledge true feelings in the end.

With it, we are whole.

Relaxation

2009-09-16T01:13:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching 10episodes of Taiyou no Uta(タイヨウのうた)　A Song To The Sun..

Another tear-jerking drama starred by Erika Sawajiri(Kaoru Amane) sugoku cute girl desu yo!!! Editing server codes has been exhausting, and a romantic touching drama is the best way to relax :D

We should all take breaks once in a while :) But there are times we should be serious too! Oh well... I know that applies to me hehe... I will try to work harder from now on!

Okay now to plan for plans... Once there is motivation, direction is before you. V(^^)V

Ganbatte Ikimasshoi !

RO Private

2009-09-09T00:13:00.004+08:00

Currently in Devising and Planning Stage........

Ragnarok Online Private Server.

It had always been my dream to create an ideal server without corruption and prejudice.
A new desktop around 1500-2000 will be considered for Hosting the server as my old comp made of "rock" will surely be impossible to host. Website i'll leave to my friends to design it as i will be busy getting down to backstage codings.

Hopefully things will go smoothly during Implementation stage.

Amen. <3

Separation and Migration

2009-09-05T09:56:00.002+08:00

Ok from now on this will be my English blog =D while the other is my Japanese blog.

I think separating it would be a good idea ^^

But i will giving more attention towards the other blog so.... >@<

九月三日　（木曜日）

2009-09-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

昨日と今日。。。　ただ普通の日々。

でも。。。　もう一時間ぐらいは。。。　＊あの子＊　の誕生日ですよ。。。
けれど、　俺が出来る事は有りません。。。

せめて彼女に　"誕生日おめでとう"　を言いたい。。。

"絶対幸せに成ってください"　を言いたい。。。

そして、　そしてたくさんの言いたい事があるけど。。。

何時までも、　ずっと彼女に届かない。　

私の心の深い深い処から、　その言葉を。

To: ******
心から、　これはあなたにお祈りですよ
～お誕生日、　おめでとうございます。～

Happy 19th Birthday!!!

*Speaking of that... there are many birthdays recently aren't there...*

九月一日 (火曜日)

2009-09-01T23:33:00.005+08:00

今日は月初め～　Usability の委譲の締め切りは今月の下旬です。　
でも絶対。。。　何とか成るさ～？

本とに疲れた。。。

今したい事は無い。

この瞬間、　俺は急に体を惜しむ。　如何して怠け者に成った？　この態度を治すの方法があるのかな。。。

八月三十一日　（月曜日）

2009-08-31T20:18:00.000+08:00

今日は我の国の建国記念日～でも慶び無かった　=P

私には、　ただ一つ休日だけ。。。

昨日、　何も出来なかった。

ただちょっと Game を遊んでした。

明日から。。。　俺絶対。。。

八月二十九日　（土曜日）

2009-08-29T11:59:00.001+08:00

今日は Chung の誕生日です！　おめでとう～　=D

俺とHsien, Liang とHui が買った贈り物は１つ *Custom Made Mug* でした～
それは凄く良い Design 、　綺麗な　Mug なのに。。。
俺前にあの双子の　Christmas Present を買った時。。。　そして今度の創った Design。。。
今度のほうが以前より綺麗 design を描いた～

Chilax に行ってました、　あの場所で、　Cally と　Wee Ting　そしてあの二人の仲間達が出会った。

その上、　幾つかの美人を見ました～　へへへ～

其れだけと思います。。。

お休みなさい。　良い夢を～

八月二十八日　（金曜日）

2009-08-28T23:47:00.004+08:00

今。。。　自分が自分の日本の名前を選ぶ。

何がいいかな。。。？

俺には、　Yuuki がいい Romaji の名前です。
Kanji に関して事は、　たくさんの選択肢があります。

例えば。。。　
１．夕希　夕生　夕喜
２．悠希　悠生　悠喜
３．優希　優生　優喜
４．由希　由生　由喜　由紀

どちらがいいですか。。。？

多分、　私は　～夕希～　其れとも　～悠生～　を選んで。

如何？

八月二十七日　（木曜日）

2009-08-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

毎日毎日、　毎週毎週の出来た事
相変わらず見たい。。。

宿題がある、　でもまだ始まった。
毎日
自分が自分で日本語を勉強します、　それはとても楽しい事です。

今までまだ運命の人をめぐり合った、　でも私は決して諦めない！

ずっと君が現れるの日を待ってます～

お久し振り

2009-08-26T23:51:00.005+08:00

えと。。。　どのくらいかかるましたか？
一月位でしたね。。。

あなたがこの街を出て行った、　でも俺何も出来なかった。
あの時は俺と君の今生の別れかも知れませんでした。。。
しかし。。。　如何して俺は力何て、　勇気何て、　見つけたありませんでした。。。？

心が辛い事まだ感じますだけど、　今僕は何とか元気です。

将来の色んな事、　俺には、　絶対万難を排する！　
何故なら。。。　君は私の最初そして最高の困った問題ですよ。

僕は今すぐ、　君に会いたい。。。

あそこ元気だね。。。？

19 is my number =)

2009-07-24T11:19:00.002+08:00

Oh well a dinner at my cousin's house and suddenly 2 cakes poofed out of nowhere and they started singing birthday songs for me and my uncle @_@

Wishing.. damn they didn't give me enough time to think what i wanna wish for..

Then its time to blow the candles =_= Btw i love the kiwi its soooooo Sweet&Sour XP

?! What's this?! Just a random picture oh well =]

METHOD_METAFALICA/.

2009-07-17T11:01:00.004+08:00

METHOD_METAFALICA/.
Ar Tonelico II Hymmnos Lyrics

y.y. eh tyuss vl omness,
I'm being healed by the kind gaze

sev x. rre yorr s.l.y. nafan mea/.
you have when you show kindness to me

y.z.t. za rre vega Efs t.k.d. ag zz t.k.d. tie hartes yor/.
Even if it's impossible, I wish that this whisper would reach you, my beloved person

s.l.y. yor sev x. rre yorr g.v.w. en x.y.n.,
When I see you causing harm and battling

ag a.u.k. zess x.y.n. mea/.
I feel like if I was causing harm myself

y.z.t. za rre vega merfa l.n.c.a. ag zz l.n.c.a. tie hartes yor/.
Even if it's impossible, I wish that this pure wish would connect us, my beloved person

wEwYEjEnc yor en mYEtYAyEy hymmnos ut eje/.
When we met, I created a song in my heart

xE rre govan en wefa sarla fEwErEn du dje/.
And its excited and warm melody began to flow inside my body

Ah, wEwYEjLYEnc syalea en zz kvvia/.
Ah, I don't regret having met you

hEkEtEt merfa tie yor en hYAmLYAmr METAFALICA!
I shall joyfully embrace the pure wishes you gave me, and for the sake of this world, and you, I shall sing the Metafalica!

xA sorr dArsn sarla vl shen/.
That´s the song of the ancient legends

xA sorr aAuk mutrk rhaplanca en Implanta/.
The warm story of Rhaplanca and the great tree of God, Implanta

xU rre vege dgal aUuk zz papana/.
In that land, where the blessing of rain never fell

xU sorr Asphaela_hiral ag Adoodu_urgn/.
That thirsty world and that grieving land

xU rre qejyu ssvid hiralg ag xevxl/.
Where the people were living in thirst and despair

幽けき　深淵の底 (kasokeki shin'en no soko)
Secluded in a deep abyss

聴こえ来るは　深き息吹 (kikoe kuru wa fukaki ibuki)
Listen to the deep breath that comes out

来たれや　開かれし刻 (kitare ya hirakareshi toki)
Come, it's the time to be free

全て捨てて　この身は謳になる (subete sutete kono mi wa uta ni naru)
Throwing away everything, I shall turn myself into a song

謳は胸を溢れて (uta wa mune o afurete)
The song floods my heart

地に渓に湖に満てる (chi ni tani ni mizuumi ni miteru)
Filling the valleys, the lakes, and the land

やがて生いし木は深く (yagate oishi ki wa fukaku)
Soon, the tree that grows from the deeps

土に根ざし大地　抱く (tsuchi ni nezashi daichi idaku)
Shall embrace this land with it´s roots

hYAmmrA cEzE hymmnos ceku/.
I will sing for your sake, and gladly turn into a song for my companions.

愛しき大地一歩　靭く　踏みしめ (itoshiki daichi ippou tsuyoku fumishime)
Together, with this beloved land, I will take a soft step

揺るがずにただ進む　この脚で (yurugazu ni tada susumu kono ashi de)
In a unshaken step, I will advance, with only my feet

踏みしめられた足跡　繋がり行く (fumishimerareta ashiato tsunagari yuku)
I stepped firmly to connect our footprints

歩みの軌跡記す　ひとつずつ (ayumi no kiseki shirusu hitotsuzutsu)
I will note down each and every locus of our walking

xA rre rhaplanca tAnYAmAnLYE poe ess gkgul doodu/.
From the top reaches of this cracked land, Rhaplanca scatters the seeds

xE rre poe hAwAss ut varda
These seeds mature into great trees

ag wArEl du cia dn ryewa keg/.
and set their sights in spreading their branches to the skies

尊き世界この腕に抱きしめ (tattoki sekai kono ude ni dakishime)
I will embrace this precious world with my arms

仰ぎし天よひとつこの胸に　誓う (aogishi sora yo hitotsu kono mune ni chikau)
Looking up to the sky, I make a pledge in my heart

xA rre rhaplanca wAsLYA jue tie Aarhou_poe ess doodu/.
Rhaplanca gives water to the seeds of hope that were planted

xE rre pikca r.w. du qejyu/.
The seeds mature into fruits that save the people

xA rre rhaplanca yYAzLYEt za rre varda rYAwLYE du qejyu/.
And Rhaplanca makes true her wish of growing a tree to help the people

この願い眩き未来　刻まん (kono negai mabaki mirai kizaman)
My wishes will engrave the dazzling future

想いの奇蹟遠く　どこまでも　響けや (omoi no kiseki tooku doko made mo hibike ya)
But how far the miracle of feelings shall resound?

xA rre mao wYAwLYAjnc Amerfa_rhaplanca/.
When Maoh met her, he also learned of her pure wishes

xA rre mao yAzYAt za rre Amerfa_has/.
Maoh wished to be able to fulfill her pure wishes

xA rre mao yAzYAt en yAzYAt za rre arhou rYAlLYAtAy ess qejyu/.
Their wishes revived the hope in the hearts of the people

Too Late Forever

2009-06-30T21:38:00.006+08:00

初恋KPPへ:

I'm already too late. I was too late. I always had been too late.

When i finally gathered up the courage, it is already not the same. This time i shall lose my chances for good. Even though i had to admit i wanted to see you for the VERY last time in my life, i couldn't.

You left, whilst i stayed. But i might leave too in the future, who knows, by chance the same place you went.

And now, time and distance will be intervening for a long period. Maybe i will get the chance again, once i leave this grounds; or shall you return to this grounds.

And perhaps when that time comes, i'll be ready. To do what i failed to do.

But... I think i still will never get the courage to see you, and you will slip out of my reach yet again. Yet, i never regretted cause this is what i foreseen...

From the day i first met you.

謹言：
ジェッラド

Winner, or Loser..?

2009-06-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

*
In love: You lose if you fall for the other person.
You're supposed to make the other person fall in love in you.
*

Do you truly believe that life has winners and losers in the first place?
Isn't thinking about victory or defeat itself an indicator of defeat?

You feel sad when you part with the one you love,
because you love them;
Or you should not fall in love in order to not feel sad?

If you fall in love with them, then you get hurt;
If they fall in love with you, then you don't.

*
But sometimes in love: Having feelings for another person,
automatically makes you the winner.
*

No matter how much you treasure something,
all things will eventually perish.
Bonds, feelings, memories, hearts and life.
Everything in this world eventually perishes, and breaks.

Things aren't about winning or losing.
It's not about entering a competition you know u can't win or lose.

Happiness is just artificial, fictional, and fake.
That is why...

Lets cherish it.

Quoted from Ef ~A Tale of Melodies~

1 Litre of Tears

2009-06-24T20:23:00.004+08:00

1 リットルの涙　(Ichi Rittoru no Namida)

Recommended Japanese drama! Although it's an old movie, it is meaningful and shows us the things we tend to overlook in life. Based on a real story, the drama is storylined from the diary in which the diseased girl wrote: "1 litre of tears".

You will definitely cry One litre of tears watching this... Somewhat XP *Thumbs up* sob sob

Movies

2009-06-21T13:13:00.003+08:00

Just watched Hannah Montana yesterday night and i found out that i have a crush on Miley Cyrus! Just kidding =P She's one of my idols now *_*

I wanna watch...

Night at the Museum 2
Blood The Last Vampire
Terminator Salvation
Transformers 2
Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince

ZZZ movies don't go away wait for me..!

My Distraught.

2009-06-19T19:16:00.002+08:00

I love reminiscing. There are sweet memories in it.
I hate reminiscing. The memories hurt.

Why?

Because i am an idiot.

I assumed things, and acted on my own accord. But there are precious treasures in my possession that i could not give away nor throw away when i thought how much a waste it would be. Everything that had been done were unrequited, since it was not requested. I didn't expect all the blame would ultimately fall upon my own self.

I was once told and believed that striving for one's best does not hurt anybody. But i was wrong. People we care might get hurt along the way no matter what we do, but still in the end we will end up hurting ourselves. If that is so why strive for one's best if the end only brings no good?

There are entities called hopes and dreams. If we lived to aim for something, even it might not work out well, at least it's gratifying. It is not the goal or destination that makes a difference, it is the process. Throughout the process we learn, we hurt, we understand. Experiences stays forever, but possessions does not. The same goes for people.

It doesn't matter if what we do does not reach the one we aim for, because what matters is their happiness, not ours. If we think what we do is for the happiness of someone else, then it will not matter if it really works out or not.

I wonder, when will we grow up and learn to understand the depths of knowledge. Then we can and will only see the good in every single thing. When, i wonder...

SOHAI

2009-06-16T18:27:00.005+08:00

Some people are kind, some people are nice. Some like to act, and some like to lie. But most of all, SOME people are sohai. Yea, you got me --- SOHAI.

Of course i won't specifically name that person, and i did not do this because this someone did something to me or whatsoever. Its the truth. Yea, you got me --- TRUTH.

Here goes the description:

They sohai, because things goes their way.
They sohai, because they are getting more and more complacent.
They sohai, because they have something others don't have.

And most of all, they sohai because they ARE sohai.

I might be complaning a little here, but i just want God to know that some certain things aren't fair down here and needs some alteration. MAJOR alterations. So maybe if that someone gets my message and be a good little kitty, then i'm cool.

So what if these people have something to show off about, things are not always certain, while people are not absolute. What's yours now, might not be yours in the future. Note that, smart guy. So if you had been following my advice, you'll do just fine.

The thing u need to do is just to TREASURE your things, loser.

Thats the best you can ever get from me, my first and my last =.=..|..

PS: Hui ge although we always call u sohai this Sohai is not you XD

Silenced

2009-06-14T19:28:00.005+08:00

Finals are coming. Actually it is just tomorrow. But i am still not in the mood. Studying seems so easy, and yet so hard. I wonder when will i take the darn notes and read them.

But it seems like i have no choice. There has to be changes, and changes will be made. Anyways good luck to all who is having their finals!

Ok i have nothing else to say or wish. Totally speechless...

Reminisces In Real Time

2009-06-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

Its been one year half since i sat down and chat with BongBong and Fany. And i mean really sit down and talk. Its so great seeing them again.. There is nothing better than reunion.

*talk topics censored =P*
*highly private and confidential*

Its great being a friend type =) For now there'll be no obvious goals for me. I'll just walk down this quiet and even path and wait till something jump out from the bushes.

What's to worry? Nothing.
What's to enjoy? Everything. <3

In time.

2009-06-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

I don't know if i tried hard previously, the i suppose work is still done in the journey to reaching our goals. But i know i shouldn't use fatigue as my excuse for giving up. There is no other choices, the path is uneven and bumpy, and the distance is far. I've been thinking to take a diverging path, one that leads to a downhill soon. I just can't and don't want to keep climbing uphill all the time. No one else does too.

I anticipate a vision, a future sight. The Time that told me to renounce is imminent. After i do so, what i see will be amalgamation of love. Without me being a hindrance to the process of bonding, particles can be merged without doubt, without difficulty. I just need to blend my type of mixture anyways, not people blending for my sake. What i say might be arcane but i am not insane, because unfathomable words shall be deciphered one day. I believe.

And now, i just want someone to pat my back and say "thank you for the hard work".
"お疲れさまでした"

Night Fever

2009-06-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

Relatives' Wedding Dinner... Err Tommy and Christine. Haha this morning when the bridegroom (Tommy) went to the bride's house they played jokes on him. I think it is my family's tradition to disturb the groom when he comes for his wife. He has to go through 3 stages to get to the bride in her room lolz. From what i heard he has to do the huu-la-hoop *_* etc. then they has to read some chinese swears thingys and then put on lipstick and stamp their mouths on that piece on paper. Some sort of swearing huh? =P

Evening time! The interesting part *hehe*

*bones of a fish that can change into an image of elephant tusks... lol*

*me bro and cuzzy Rick*

*Me lovely mom and me <3>

*Wuu aunties*

*Care for a mug of heineken? The more you drink, the sweeter it gets XP*

*Best buddies.. eh hem cousins to be precise*

*Time to get HOT* -the night is not over- =P

*Zzz where's mine...*

*Mine!!!* -Caramel Cream Chocolate Chip-
Wierd name huh? The story goes like this:
1) I pretended to be stupid and asked the waiter what is caramel.
2) He said it was something like butter.
3) I love butter, so ya one Caramel Cream for me.
4) Cousin Alex came along and ordered Vanilla Cream Chocolate Chip.
5) Wait.. its not on the menu... Can it be done?
6) Can~ Can~ Of course no problem~
7) Waiter asked whether i want the same too.
8) Chocolate chips are very nice he said.
9) And i succumbed to temptation and persuasion.
10) And i got my 4C, to describe the taste - Totally Sweet.

Other comments for now...?
Home Sweet Home. <3

Discretion to Decision

2009-05-31T16:13:00.004+08:00

Are alot of people getting married lately? =D Well maybe some hehe.. Later tonight going to attend a wedding dinner of... of... my grandfather's.. err my mother's... Hmm oh well my relative in short. I've got a good feeling it would be fun since i hadn't been to TheBanquet for a long time -sighs-

Oh well next friday i will have freedom! I don't mean that i don't have it now, i am having lotsa freedom now =) Its just that i will be having overflowing freedom for a week XP And so im declaring an open house on 5th-11th of June. *hinting someone who knows what i mean* kekeke

--- --- --- --- ---

There are now woven threads scattered around. I wonder what will be the story behind those woven threads when i connect them. But an insinuating telltale is very intricate to empathize. There was once a time i wanted to bring all fragments of the story together, but now i affirm that it is not the right time. Pieces are not supposed to be mended all at a time; as wounds could not all heal at a time. They should be done gradually, understanding the whole piece one by one as a complete picture will start to form gradually.

*
* And now, i just can't decide whether being ignorant or innocent is bliss. *

Fragments of Dreams - 夢の欠片

2009-05-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

There are no miracles in this world
there are only inevitabilities and accidents,
and what u want to do.

but sometimes the outcome of your action,
which become inevitable,
will overlap with accidents,
and fulfill your dream unexpectedly.

n.o.t.h.i.n.g. will happen if you don't wish for it

Do you have memories you don't want to forget?
忘れたくない想い　いますか？

Everyone has prayed to God at least once
even though they might not believe,
one day they will surely make an honest prayer.

Something that is everyone looking for,
something that is everyone looking after.
something that's created from everyone's continuous wishes and the bonds between them.

Dream.

Put your wishes into the memories you don't want to forget.
忘れたくない想いに願いを込めて。

Yume no Kakera - 夢の欠片

Ef~a tale of memories~ 第十二章

Lost, and Found.

2009-05-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

For a while i thought that things lost can never be found.
I was proven wrong.

If we still have hope, there is always something we can achieve.

And i even prepared myself to accept the fact that i lost my external harddisk, but it was found. Although it had been a week since i lost it, i didn't think that sending email to every users in swinburne through blackboard will work out well. So... well, things turn out okay.

There is still kindness in this world, is you believe.

There can be miracles, if you believe.

Things that are lost, can be found.

*Weeeeee~~~ ...*

Sick.

2009-05-15T18:38:00.002+08:00

Im sick.

Not sick of someone, not sick of something.

Just sick.

Cough.

Sick.

Don't remind me.

2009-05-09T13:14:00.003+08:00

Don't remind me, of that word.
Don't remind me, of that name.
Don't remind me, of that person.

How astonishing that words can turn out to be a name, and a name can turn out be be a significant certain someone.

Looking at letters that somehow lie there dead and immobile somewhat wavers the shape of my heart. I can choose not to be regretting, coz im not sulking for what that i did not succeed. For why...? Maybe its just that there is other chances out there. Nobody always gets a smooth walking path, as there shall be stones and pebbles that hinder the way. As the saying says "Failure is a stepping stone to success" is the light that guide us through life, and of course failures. If we know how to accept them, we will know what to do.

But i do not know what to do. So does that mean i did not accept my failure? But i somehow believed that i accepted some time ago... If i can go back in time, i would surely change something. Something, for sure. For the me in the was a complete failure, the current me should be able to do something. The present would be so different if the past was different from the current past.

Dont remind me, of love.

Flamesy

2009-04-27T19:11:00.002+08:00

Fire at 4 & 1/2 mile!! Haha fetching my bro to tuition and saw this cool thing. *Eh hem* sorry, not cool.

The fire made the jam >_> and so many bystanders *eh hem those kepo people*

Opssie im also kepo i took photos *spare me XD*

---

Feel like exercising lately... Been so lazy.. and now i can't wait to watch all those movies i have now =D And i still have not been able to meet BongBong and Fany... -Sighs- Hope can really meet during this year's Kuching Festival... I have a year's story to tell. Sort of...

To SRC

2009-04-22T17:01:00.002+08:00

Deep in my heart, i hope that day will never come.

What day? I ask.
What day? U ask.

Is it the day of parting? Or the day of meeting?

I definitely will not be able to bear the feelings of being in those moments.

For why?

I don't know. Maybe...

PS:
*You are the one i can't face the most in this world.*

Permai Trip 18-19 April 2009

2009-04-19T20:16:00.009+08:00

When we reached permai...

The sea !! Natsukashi... I love the sea <3

OMG! Frank is stripping into.... into.... Boxers! HAHA

Me and Alison then found this... *Takara* (Treasure) So pretty~

I cant stop laughing when they did this.. One of the best laugh LOLS

Then we expanded the hole and stuck someone in it! XD

Sort of like... RIP? =D

Aha! One of our best work at the beach! The DAM!

See we actually change the course of nature... Or something like that.. Cool huh?

Omg and then a little water snake came along to visit our dam...

He looks dangerous, so we threw sand bombs at it ! *Fire in the hall!*

This was this morning earlier on... We wanted to see the sunrise together.. the 29 of us..

Well in the end only KK, Gary, Alison and I managed to get our ass at the beach at 6.

Sadly there the sunrise was blocked by the mountain, so we resumed our sleep =D

After breakfast they went for kayaking!!

Totemo tanoushi kana... Looks so much fun rite... I dint get a chance, but maybe next time *wink*

Random shot before going home~

I found mr. Crabby =) So cute...

And i think... i found a crave for Cameras... Good cameras actually make a difference when taking pictures. I probably awakened the liking for taking pictures lately =D Due the the people around me who kept taking good pictures @_@

Till then.. till then.

Inspiration.

2009-04-12T13:13:00.002+08:00

You need to go back to the beginning if you want to get inspiration to keep going. Your past can hold the key to your future, so always look back and reflect. Remember back where we were enthusiastic about where we were going in life? The passion is still there, and we just have to dig down deep enough to find it!

Motives can be lost at certain times, but can always be retrieved. Doing something requires personal interest for perfection. I might have lost several motives and goals, but i will not let go of the inspiration which keeps me going. For now, i think my mind will not go astray.

Hopefully i can get out of this maze as soon as possible without getting lost.
Can I...?
Ya, i think so.

Collection Update

2009-04-08T10:10:00.006+08:00

ANIME

Akane-iro ni Somaru Saka (COMPLETE 12/12)
Angel Tales
Beyblade
Boku wa Imouto ni Koi o Suru
Chobits
Chronicles Of The Wings
Clannad
Clannad ~After Story~
Crescent Love (COMPLETE 12/12)
Da Capo
EF ~ A Tale of Memories ~
EF ~ A Tale of Melodies ~
Final Approach (COMPLETE 13/13)
Ichigo 100%
Jigoku Shoujo ~Mitsuganae~
Kaze no Stigma
Kanokon (4/12)
Kimi ga nozomu Eien
KimiKiss -Pure Rouge- (COMPLETE 24/24)
Kissxsis (COMPLETE 1/1)
La Corda D'Oro
Lucky Star
Maria+Holic
Maria Watches Over Us S1
Maria Watches Over Us S2 ~Haru~
Maria Watches Over Us S3 OVA (COMPLETE 5/5)
Maria Watches Over Us S4 (COMPLETE 13/13)
Midori no Hibi
Nogizaka Haruka no Himitsu
Ragnarok The Animation
REC
Saiunkoku Monogatari
Seto no Hanayome (COMPLETE 26/26)
Shakugan no Shana Season1
Shakugan no Shana Season2
School Days (COMPLETE 12/12)
Shounen Onmyouji
Shuffle!
Special A (COMPLETE 24/24)
To Heart
Toradora (COMPLETE 25/25)
True Tears (COMPLETE 13/13)
Zero no Tsukaima (COMPLETE 13/13)
Zero no Tsukaima -Futatsuki no Kishi- (COMPLETE 12/12)
Zero no Tsukaima -Princess no Rondo- (COMPLETE 12/12)

DRAMA

Densha Otoko (3/11)
Hana Yori Dango
Honey And Clover
Nodame Cantabile (COMPLETE 11/11)
Proposal Daisakusen (COMPLETE 11/11)

Door of miracles?

2009-04-06T22:00:00.003+08:00

The door of miracles.

They always exist, just that we never noticed.
The key to the door of miracles, lie in our hearts.

Ask, and it shall be given.
Seek, and it shall be found.
Knock, and it shall be opened.

*Quote from Proposal Daisakusen Finale*

Knock knock at your heart;

knock knock at my heart

***

Anybody home...?

*+ the sound of door opening... +*

Window Glass

2009-04-01T10:35:00.000+08:00

Our hearts is like a house.
A house, with rooms.
Rooms, either vacant or occupied.

There are rooms that are full or even overloading...
The room which we keep our friends.

Yet...

There are rooms that are empty.
We added the extra room for someone,

and wishes to invite them to our heart.
But, there is no that someone to live in there
and leaves a hole in the heart...

You're still on the other side of the room,
Between you and me
And what separates us,
Is a transparent wall, a glass window
which turns foggy with my crystallized sighs...

The window glass
so obscure that i cannot see you
even though i know that you are right there
whether you're laughing, or crying...
I just want you to show me your face

No matter how hard i try to wipe the glass from my side,
The glass from your side will still be clouded...

So please... Look at the glass from your side too...
Wipe the glass window from your side too...

爱河

2009-03-31T23:20:00.004+08:00

有人曾经问我，
* "喜欢心悦对象的哪一点...?"
# "哪一点... 长相? 聪明... 能干..."
* "也就是说... 只看表面咯?"

能够具体的回答喜欢的哪一点, 就不是真正的爱情.

真正的爱情, 是当你注意到的时候, 你会发现自己不能没有她;
是无法单纯用言语回答出喜欢的哪一点.

...
但就像初雪堆积不起来一样,
初恋通常也都不会有结果.

也许, 我们的确不应该喜欢上名花有主的; 或有花名主...
...

不过, 我终于知道...
我一定很喜欢沉浸在爱河中的女生.

因为沉浸在爱河中的女生, 看起来都很耀眼...

而

沉浸在爱河中的男孩...
看起来会不会也很耀眼呢...?

我希望... 有一天
一定会让*你*变得更耀眼.

Life Code Translation

2009-03-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

I've been watching lots of romance genre animes lately. There has been much inspiration, or motivation, or logic in a sense. But thats not the point, the point is the fact of figuring something out.

There are 3 elements, which are related, and are not related in any way.

Distance, Time, Surroundings

Distance is always a confusing element. People tend to calculate things and situation depending on distance. This distance mentioned represents a symbol, for uncountable circumstances; and we normally exploit this word to describe our situation. But, it is wrong. We can not describe things by just distance alone. Distance is scalar, and it applies to the fields we intend to use it. Take note - use Displacement. Either in measuring reality or fantasy. Then you'll always find your way home.

Time is confusing in another perspective. It cannot be so easily perceived akin to distance. Time is everlasting, and it revolves around our Surroundings. Every point of time or moment has an unnoticeable significance. That is why we always mislooked or missed out things at certain times of life. Time is neither scalar nor vector, it is immeasureable. Yet, it holds an ultimate importance that once change shall alter the course of direction, and it applies to the destination too.

Surroundings is both the element of time and space. We live our live on, but we never thought about how others live theirs. Each entity that exists on this planet has a story of its own, and one that strangers can't tell. If this is conprehended then we shall discover the mysteries of alienship that actually exist in our planet. One may be standing next to you, but you never know the past, present and future of that. Every single being is moving on, travelling on a course of its own, an enigma for augury.

When we combine various elements of life, we acknowledge the meaning behind it. So know our destination, know our situation, and head towards our dream...

&

Never give up.

Melting, not Rotting?

2009-03-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

One of the main background display picture for my previous blogpage had whatever bandwidth problems, so i had to resolve to changing a new blog template =) Looks nicer right? Well we humans keep improving mwahahaha~ Things that revolve around us also change, for the better ^^

Borrowed many anime burned into discs from Eugene @@ True Tears is definitely a good play! Erm.. although i did not shed any tear on the outside, my heart was crying inside TT Haha jkjk to be precise it is a very touching anime =P *Recommended* Alright.. now "Maria Watches Over Us Season 3" & "Nodame Cantabile Season 2" is next on my watch list hehehe...

Oh my goodness im actually having a test tomorrow. And i spent the whole day sitting here and finished watching True Tears... sob sob its soooo irresistable... =(

And now.. Its like my heart is melting... and i dont know what to do... I think i'll probably seek guidance from the stars above... probably...

Ocean Size Love

2009-03-21T12:06:00.001+08:00

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between, needs our attention
I see you right in front of me, as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave, this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry any more
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection
I see you right in front of me, a vision in my head
And I know this is as real, as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

You make no sound, but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends, like the sea, like you for me

And it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love
And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

Oh, oh...

Ocean Size Love

Leigh Nash

Taggg

2009-03-14T16:48:00.003+08:00

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name.

1. Own name: Gerald

2. Four-lettered word: *Gulp*

3. A boy's name: Gilbert

4. A girls name: Gen

5. An occupation: Golfing

6. A colour: Gray

7. Something you'll wear: Gold o.o

8. Food: Gourmet XD

9. Something found in the bathroom: xxx

10. A place: Germany

11. A reason for being late: Gaming or Gabbling

12. Something you'd shout: Gam lin arh !!

13. A movie title: Ghostbusters!

14. Something you'd drink: Gin Sling

15. A musical group: xxx

16. An animal: Gorilla! Wuh wuh wuh..

17. A street's name: xxx

18. A type of car: Oh yes! Gen-2!! (Thought for so long dammit)

19. The title of a song: Green Light (John Legend)

20. Tag 5 people: Xiang, Fany, Esther, Bryan, Alison...?

Forgive me for my indolence in getting ideas for things that start with G. Its just too rare to find things that start with G. Sob sob TT I should try A.. V.. or C.. Hmm... Oh well im done! =P

まだ愛して．．．か？

2009-03-12T20:01:00.005+08:00

時として記憶は

心を縛る

しかし，　心は

新しい出会いによって

解き放ったれ

そして，　今
飛び立っていく

未来へ。

僕は：　“あなたはバカ．．．！”
君は：　“誰がバカだ．．．？”

でも．．．　

私はまだあなたを愛しています．．．

shh... ね？

Nodame Cantabile

2009-03-04T14:56:00.005+08:00

A romantic melody that emanates from two different people that got together and eventually harmonises with each other. A wonderful romance Japanese drama! *Recommended!!!*

*Ps: My favourite drama ATM hehehe..

Drama name: Nodame Cantabile [のだめカンタービレ]
Casts:
Main actor aka Chiaki Shinichi [Tamaki Hiroshi]
Main actress aka Noda Megumi [Ueno Juri]

Nodame plays the piano, Chiaki is versatile in piano and violin but he wants to become a conductor. May the love showdown begin! Heee =)

And now im inspired and motivated! Yeeha~ Piano, here i come XP

Gyabo !!!

貴方の為に生きてくれ…

2009-03-02T17:26:00.004+08:00

今私,　ここに坐っている
そして何かが思ってる
君はきっとわからない
ほんの一瞬で何が起こるのか

全て起源の為に
それは私が愛し始めたときに始まった

今君，　そこに坐っている
そして何も気遣わないで
私はきっと待ってない
ほんの一瞬で何が消えるのか

あなたの傷わ治したか?
そうならいいですね…

私を忘れないで、
いい?

さまざまな色

2009-02-28T00:51:00.005+08:00

気分モード - きもちで :

桃色(ぴんく) - 恋する　Mimiiro(Pinku) - Koisuru ~Lovestruck~

赤色　- 怒る　Akairo - Okoru ~Animosity~

緑色　- 嫉妬する　Midoriiro - Shittosuru ~Jealousy~

青色　- 悲しい　Aoiro - Kanashii ~Sorrow~

灰色　- 寂しい　Haiiro - Sabishii ~Loneliness~

********************************************

Harisen.

2009-02-27T20:25:00.003+08:00

Harisen - paper fan

Functions similarly to a fan, but its paper. Although paper seems inferior when compared to other existences, it still has its own usages. Despite being second-rated, it is retained as a symbol, sometimes as dubious authority.

But the paper fan can be easily spoilt, torn or bent. There is always a rise and fall factor and nothing escapes that fact.

What is past is past.

Embrace the future.

LIVE in the present.

Either good or bad the past may be, we still have to walk over it. We should keep the past in a sepia portrait, and the color shall always remain as it is. And when we ponder back and reminisce our past, it shall always sustain the same feeling.

Happy Birthday~

2009-02-22T21:23:00.004+08:00

Today is my grandpa's and cousin Jason birthday! =) My granps is 72, the year of the cow; and my cousin Jason is 22, the year of the rabbit Hohoho~

Happy birthday to you~~ Happy birt................ etc. =D

3 idiots eating cakes *swts*

Lucky draw !! 22... and i got... Mushroom! Oh my god! *sob sob*

May my luck change for the better next time *_*

Dreams.

2009-02-21T00:45:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's not about impressions and expectations, but we do expect at times and we aim for the best we can achieve.
It's because when you love someone, there is no limit to what you can accomplish.

So dream high.

A melody is like an encounter with someone, and when getting to know them is the lyrics.
The wonder of music is the combination of these two that makes magic, and life is like music.

So dream far.

Way Back Into Love.

2009-02-20T23:55:00.006+08:00

(Haley)
I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

(Hugh)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just incase I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time,to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

(Chorus)
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
ohhh

(Haley)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
Ive been searching but I just dont see the signs
I know that its out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

(Hugh)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction, and I'm open to your suggestions

(Chorus)
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart again
I guess Im hoping you'll be there for me in the end

(Haley)
There are moments when I dont know if it's real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration, not just another negotiation

(Chorus)
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
and If I open my heart to you
Im hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for you in the end.

Performed by: Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett
Music and Lyrics OST Soundtrack

PS: I think im gonna perform this song *its so nice*
Better start practicing...

Farewell, my friend.

2009-02-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

ah Xiang went to Taiwan today =( Wuwu... Dont know when can see him again.. Me and Kang Hong thought he's going there alone =.= but looks like he's going with a few people, so we felt relieved =) Oh well... Tata then TT Till next time, we'll definitely meet again.

What kinds of monster are you?

2009-02-16T12:54:00.002+08:00

You Are a Werewolf

You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky.

You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster.

Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde.

But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural.

Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature

Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control

You play well with: Vampires

What Kind of Monster Are You?

Valentine story-tellings

2009-02-15T18:44:00.006+08:00

Although Valentine's day brings lots of happiness and laughter, it also brings sadness and sorrow unconsciously. There are people who found their other half, but there are those who had not. A day which causes tons of anxiety in people, whether good or bad.

Well i missed out the fun this year, but things doesn't only happen to me. There are other stories out there, either fulfilled, or unfinished. A significant day that destiny collides with certain people to create their own new stories. On the other hand destiny collides and make some stories end. But.. there are actually more uncomplete stories than complete ones on this particular day.

Sometimes people never even noticed, feelings that were left behind uncaressed. Stories like this are never-ending as there was no beginning, and shall be no ending. At the end of the day, there are destined smiles; and destined frowns. As for those who smiled, best of luck and may it continue everlastingly; as for those who sighed, there is always a new day that will come eventually so don't give up hope too early yet ya? =)

*

And this is my story: It ends here. It never had any of a beginning, as it was not properly told; And it never had an ending, as there is no ending to suit the story anyways. So now i end my story here, and it shall be retold in the impending future.

For when shall the cupid's arrow strike my storybook like a comet?

Nobody knows.

And now, thats all for today.

*Storybook closed*

Good and Bad.

2009-02-14T17:00:00.002+08:00

The good thing that is about to happen is, i will have freedom starting tomorow for a week. (Macam i dont have freedom pulak XP) My mum's going to KL, leaving me and my brother to ourselves ahhhh =( Maybe the good things arent that much after all...

The bad THINGS are... I have to do everything. Laundry, cleaning, cooking and daily stuff yeah. But hey look on the bright side i'm in charge right? Right....? Its gonna be a busy week, but i had planned to color my hair after my mum's back.

Can't wait till March, it'll be coming in a jiffy. And that means... SCHOOL! reopen~ Im starting to miss Swinburne hahaha =D We can kiss our asses goodbye to holidays yeehooo~~~ Finally we can have something to do rather than rotting in our houses every single day that passes =(

Alrighty then... Till then... En en.

Reunion.

2009-02-13T01:47:00.006+08:00

Reunion with Marlene & the gang at 5 after finish watching KyleXY. Is that considered a reunion? Hmm i dont think so =P But we did usual stuff, bla bla bla whole way.

7 is the beginning of the night! Meeting place: The Spring. My old buddies are...: Kang Hong, Rui Xiang & Kew Jui. Hong, Xiang and Frank in short =) Dinner place: Food bazaar. Omg i didnt know where was it until Hsien told me, in time lol. After eating... walked around looking for Valentine's Day presents hmm.. Looks like we're a gang huh =D Xiang going to Taiwan soon AKA next Tuesday.. thats why we had this reunion. And he wanted to buy a Valentine's card for his *beloved* Hahaha he even planned how to give to his special girl on Valentine's day. And Kang Hong... eh hmm.. hehe. So envy these contented people *_* +shiny eyes+ Good luck guys! You'll need it *wink* As for me its another normal Valentine. It should not be normal.. but i choose to be.. it should be special.. and so should i...? what am i talking about..

9 is cybercafe moments. We were talking about playing a zombie game called "Left 4 Dead" and so ngam is only for FOUR players !! And we really did play together, saving each other and spamming our bullets on the zombies!! Ahhh HELP!!! *BAng BANG* And a short dota match after that =P

11 is countdown time. Went to McD at TunJugah and settled down. Francis' bday is the 13th that is.. Today! We waited till 12am with him, cool rite? =) Oh and this was the part we couldnt stop laughing. Did not had a good laugh for ages. We talked about the word SaNiNeGuYong which is a very bad word, talking about Xiang taking this word and spread over whole Taiwan, telling them its a greeting phrase XD Since he's going to Taiwan, we kept telling a joke over and over which does not bore us even one bit. Guess what? We told him since he's going to Taiwan, MalaysianRinggit is useless, so we asked him to pay the dinner, McD... HAHAHA~ And he can give us all his MalaysianRinggit, coz he cant use it in Taiwan anyway LOL~!! So many jokes, i wonder the people around can stand our laughters or not XP funny advertisements... and about Kang Hong's house. This part was damn funny: the mice outside his house weren't there anymore... but now.. there is the Four-legged-snake. Haaah EVOLUTION. And the kittens in his house disappeared without reason... What'd you reckon...? *gulpp*

Fran and Xiang AKA Fatja. He made his own movie named Fatja (FatNinja) in youtube lol. It that the reason why he wanted to go to Taiwan...? TVB ACTOR?!! Haha who knows...?

Kang Hong and Fran! OMG Colored hair... im sooooo tempted. Mmm~

Anyways it was definitely a fun night. Driving late at 1 in the morning is so idyllic that there are barely cars on the wide road. Significantly there is a sense... of peace. Anyway i really wanted to revisit my old primary school... wonder what had become of it huh~

1 is the time i note down my day hehe...

Nitey Nitez

只有蝴蝶，但随风而逝了

2009-02-12T10:37:00.005+08:00

爱是自由之子，不是统治之后

记忆
有论于没有好处
它往往是痛苦的根源，一生里患得患失
其实是忘不了过去的事

只有蚂蚁，但随土而逝了

倘若
能像蝴蝶一样随风而逝
那么人就没有烦恼了

时间使它光洁，使我们苍老

只有蝴蝶, 但随风而逝了

Jo & Sue's 19th Birthday

2009-02-11T21:17:00.004+08:00

A busy day in short =) Woke up early to give support to Chung and Alex for their resit examinations! Then went to Perodua Car Service centre around 9am to teman Hsien coz he alone there. See i so friend?! Right...?! =D Went to find birthday cards before fetching Swee Liang... Damn the cards that place had was so repetitive. But at least there were 2 that caught my attention. At LEAST. ^^

Off to Alison's house!! Wow Jo said 11.30am *SharP* and they were all there before me LoL. Itu Jo-Ann pick up Alison punya handphone when i called and didnt understood a things i said. *Fainted*

It took us quite some time to decide our lunch. Be more decisive PEOPLE! Just kidding, last minute is fun, i like depending on our final instincts =) They sometimes actually lead to more fun. Dont u think? Say YES!! If u say no im gonna kill u. XP

Lunch at FourPointsHotel - a buffet. Overall, considered satisfactory. Then walk around there, look around. Not bad la.. No extra comments.

The fun part had not ended, it has only begun. LaserTag! I kinda missed it since the one near Swinburne shut down and moved to Sejingkat =( * )= But another chance to play it today! I like spectating too, seeing people running around macam no life Hehe. But when i played, i got hit on the head =( Someone ambushed me with a weapon sob sob. Next time we should use that too, it's a way better tactic that shooting that has a probability to miss rite? Jk~

Then so tired and HOT! Limteh at Jadepot near alison's house. And went back to Alison's house of course. Discuss some little things.. eh hem.

All righty, some pictures to do the final talking. Not much though, so don't complain ya?

Triangular stop sign. STOP!!!

Aha! See the birthday girls so happy. *Insanity*Receive so MANY birthday presents XP Nah thats just for fun hehe its actually Stars! Green and Pink, perfect.

Another group photo. This one looks more okay ya? Everyone seems sane. *heh heh*

Can't wait till another outing. There's a holiday going on ya everyone?

U hear meeee?! =)

Someone's watching over me

2009-02-10T13:59:00.002+08:00

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over,
Someone's watching over,
Someone's watching over me...

Someone's watching over me

Hilary Duff

Raise Your Voice OST

Dreaming Memory

2009-02-10T10:45:00.005+08:00

Dreams always come back. Naturally.
Or maybe.. it does when we seek it unconsciously...?

The heart and the mouth are not always One.
The mouth can say no on the surface, but deep inside the heart says yes.

*

Maybe its just that thoughts of it conjured twice a day. And that made KPP appeared in my dream.This wasn't a short one though, it was a . l . o . n . g . o . n . e . It seemed like i did not dream about anything else the whole night. Cause all i could recall was just that.

We humans dream more than 9 dreams during a sleep. But why we only remember 1 or 2? It is because we ALSO tend to forget dreams. And the ones that was carved deeply in our minds managed to stay behind, as memories. Memories of dreaming.

Looks like i should stay away from pigs,

or they shall interfere with my dreams again.

Gatecrash, seemingly.

2009-02-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

Whole day out. People finally put their EM past their backs. Err.. i mean their resit exam is over =D And well it's such a day, went to lotsa places, but i dont wanna talk about it one bit. Well.. Maybe.. abit XP

Meeting! At Stella's place! Urgent hoho
Ceh! Not urgent, just fireworks urgent k...

Anyways i found my love today. My love... Animals!

My beloved - Monkeys.

My all time favourite - Pig.

Cant find cat and rabbit sob sob. Maybe next time.

Fireworks.

2009-02-08T22:29:00.006+08:00

Chinese new year is officially ending tomorrow night, but im celebrating it one day earlier with my family and relatives. And im also celebrating it again tomorrow night at Stella's place with friends. Nothing better than this huh? =)

The best video of all... Fireworks, in the shape of a *H.e.a.r.t.*

Lets bade farewell to the New year, and welcome the season of love - Valentine.

Farewell... But not goodbye... ya?

Gatecrasher.

2009-02-06T18:40:00.009+08:00

Im at fault for being so gullible.

When secrets cease being secrets, the 'story' ends,

And things went out of hand.

Maybe secrets should remain in the heart,

Or see where we place our trust.

Knowingly brings more blame when wrong;

unknowingly brings more praise when right.

I think i can't differentiate between dreams and reality now.
Someone weren't invited to my dream, and seemingly created this pleasantry.

Gatecrash, particularly.

I always forgive, but i do not forget.

I do not feel guilty, because the truth is nothing but the truth.

Dreams cease being dreams when dreams stop dreaming.

And when they do, they fade away.

And i proclaim:

For those dreams that have fade away...

. N e v e r F o r g e t T h e m .

Idea generated from:
Final Fantasy X

Tag by Jo-Ann

2009-02-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

Rules: The Rules are simple.
Use Google, etc to search the answers to the questions below.
Then you must choose a picture in the first page of result and post it as your answer.

The Age Of My Next Birthday

The Place I'd Like To Travel To

A Favourite Food

A Nickname I Had

A Favourite Color

The City I Live In

The City I Was Born In

College Major

Name Of My Love

Bad Habit

Hobby

My Wishlist

The Family Year Of Love.

2009-01-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

A new year has come, and the old year leaves. This, is a year of love. And it was the year of hope previously.. So it gave us hope, to look for love this year =) May love blossom in the midst of our fellow peers? No one knows... Until the time comes, everything shall be clear.

So now let us pray that we will feel lots of lots of love this year k? XP

And my fortune cookie said...

"Sometimes what you need is a hand to hold, and a heart to understand"

Fortune cookie 2009

Eyes On Me.

2009-01-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

Whenever Sang My Songs On The Stage On My Own
Whenever Said My Words Wishing They Would Be Heard
I Saw You Smiling At Me
Was It Real Or Just My Fantasy?
You`d Always Be There
In The Corner Of This Tiny Little Bar

My Last Night Here For You, Same Old Songs Just Once More
My Last Night Here With You? Maybe Yes, Maybe No
I Kinda Liked It Your Way
How You Shyly Placed Your Eyes On Me
Oh, Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You

* Darling, So There You Are With That Look On Your Face
As If You`re Never Hurt, As If You`re Never Down
Shall I Be The One For You Who Pinches You Softly But Sure
If Frown Is Shown Then I Will Know That
You Are No Dreamer *

So Let Me Come To You, Close As I Wanna Be
Close Enough For Me To Feel Your Heart Beating Fast
And Stay There As I Whisper,
How I Loved Your Peaceful Eyes On Me
Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You

Darling, So Share With Me Your Love If You Have Enough
The Tears If You`re Holding Back
Or Pain If That`s What It Is
How Can I Let You Know I`m More Than The Dress & The Voice
Just Reach Me Out And You Will Know That You Are Not Dreaming

*Repeat*

Final Fantasy VIII Theme Song

Faye Wong

What passes with the wind?

2009-01-16T21:30:00.003+08:00

Some say, Dream is the biggest lie on earth.

It is different for me.
It is real as to virtual fantasy.

Because of it's actuality, i can't believe that it is a dream;
because of it's fantasy, i can't deny that it is a dream.

Do Caterpillars evolve or regress?

In their chrysalis they look forward to seeing the outside world.
Is evolution to butterflies actually evolvement or reversion?

Because of it's evolution, it attains freedom;
because of it's regression, it retains simplicity.

To me, you are like my Dream and Butterfly.
Dreams like fragrant scents in my senses and,
Butterflies like butter cream on my lips.

~ My only dream and butterfly, but passes with the wind ~

Wuuu Interesting.

2009-01-16T20:30:00.006+08:00

Went to Kenyalang in the morning, visit Hsien's shop XD Wu interesting sell plastics and vegetarian food. Yum yum. Then we had to think of something to do to melengah masa. Coz 2.30 nid bring my brother and his fren to tuition. But i HUNGRy, so ate chicken rice at Petanak and this is what we saw when we left. Accident ! Wuu interesting x2.

Then went to TunJugah shopping =) Wuuu interesting x3. Bought some novels to read. It plays an important role in this lonesome holiday *smiles*

Oh well. Can't wait till badminton next monday. Exercise is good for life, admit it ! Yess! Good.

Genesis.

2009-01-14T23:28:00.007+08:00

Moments ago i see holidays as imminent.

And now it is heralding a looming upshot.

I've been walking on this path with composure for quite a while now.

But once again a diverging path materializes.

Somehow... this rings a bell...

The music of my saga conjures manically,

and i involuntarily evoke presence of the past.

I must be given ample time.

In order to streamline this chronicle and preclude it from going astray.

And no matter how many times the sun rises,

i must conclude this before the sun sets.

After the sun sets, darkness shall arise.

Shall the only source of illumination be the twilight moon?

And what, i cant see in the dark. Not just me, anyone can get lost.

Although i claim to always have good sense of direction,

it doesn't seem to help me in this one.

Maybe what i need isn't good senses, what i need is...

TURN ON THE DARN LIGHTS

Perhaps, a new dawn shall come to pass.

And dusk shall not continue when dawn arrives.

This means, a new hope shall emerge among upheavals.

From there i shall seek for enlightenment.

When that moments comes...

I shall possess the knowledge to do what i have to do.

A Babbling Bumbling Bunch of Babboons!

2009-01-14T18:47:00.005+08:00

I say babboon but i am not babboon =(

Me innocent.

Me no babboon union.

And u see what babboons did to me?

This !

*thats the front glass pane of my car*

*babboons hand itchy and stick it there*

Lets save this world from babboons.

Join me !!

Dream.

2009-01-13T12:40:00.003+08:00

Wake up early to study, but fell asleep. Fell asleep and - dream about... KPP.

Woke up, whala! 12.30pm. 3 hours of napzie, 3 hours of excitement, 3 hours of fun, and 3 hours of virtual happiness.

It was something i never felt before, or will not, and never will have the chance to experience it. Unless time, space and God permits.

*Story Censored*

And ah Hsien said that KPP was Kesatuan Parti Papaya. LOL a cute guess, but nowhere near =) And he said me killing people's pig was cruel. Whatever he knows my secret anyway.

And oh KPP, may i be allowed to dream about you... Again?

Face it. Again

2009-01-11T18:06:00.004+08:00

There's no time left to relish, but i ain't relishing.
Maybe i am, but i ain't putting my heart into it.

Predicaments come and go. All the time.

This always happen before breakdowns, but its my own self to blame for not preserving beforehand. Though i can't change things at the last minute, they could get miraculous at times *wink*

-i love suprises-

don't chya?

Face it.

2009-01-11T15:41:00.009+08:00

There's no time left to study, but i ain't studying.
Maybe i am, but i ain't putting my heart into it.

Distractions come and go. All the time.

This always happen before exams, but its my own self to blame for not studying beforehand. Though i hate doing things at the last minute, they could get interesting at times
*wink*

-i love challenges-

don't chya?

Shout.

2009-01-09T21:38:00.004+08:00

Oh yes! I can sms again! Thx to the DiGi staffgirl at HockLee Centre !! You're so damn great compared to the ones in Boulevard, and the DiGiSerViceCentre. And now a sense of freedom floods me mwahaha =P Ops sorry i got carried away.

Exams are around the corner. It actually means the end of Summer Semester. I seriously need to start revising shitty shits. And oh how i will so damn miss this semester. Fun could be compared to 1st semester... Foundation rocks!

I love you people! =D

Taggie by Hsien.

2009-01-09T20:26:00.006+08:00

RANDOM FACTS :
001. Real name: Gerald Tay YanYuan
002. Nicknames: Carrot / ahyan / Gary
003. Married: No idiot.
004. Zodiac sign: Leo "RAWR"
005. Male or Female: Male you idiot. Look at my name
006. Age: 18 Years and 5 months old =)
007. Highschool: SMK Kuching High
008. College: SUTS (Swinburne University of Technology Sarawak)
009. Residence: Kuching la
010. Hair color: Black
011. Long or Short Hair: Mediocre
012. Smoke: I smoke the air, O2O2
013. Drink: I drink the water, H2OH2O
014. Available: Single and Available for 18.5 years =)
015. Are you a health freak: Depends
016. Weight: Approximate 50kg now! Glad of that
017. Do you have a crush?: They just come and go.
018. Do you like yourself: Err abit
019. Piercings: Planning to get one
020. Tattoos: Ew. No way.
021. Righty or Lefty: Righty but i love my left hand shhh

FIRST:
022. First surgery: X have
023. First piercing: I am planning to do so, so dont have la
024. First best friend/s: 1st one?? Kang Hong XD
025. First award: Duhhh forgotten
026. First memory: Private and Confidential
027. First pet: A pair of turtles
028. First Vacation: Terengganu/Pahang or Melaka i think..
029. First Concert: Guang Liang !! AT Kenyalang! First & Last
030. First Crush: 杀人猪

LAST:
031. Last time you went out: Few hours ago
032. Last time you had a good time: I treasure all moments in life =P
033. Last time you cried: Err form 4?
034. Last award: Sorry no remember
035. Last trip abroad: My hometown KL!
036. Last concert: My first is my last
037. Last album you bought: SHE Album few years ago...
038. Last song you played: Beautiful - Akon *hehe* "I never wanna see you cry cry cry"
039. Last phonecall: Mum
040. Last laugh: ah my dear Friends~

PICK ONE:
041. Summer or Winter: Winter. "I'd rather die cold then die hot"
042. Rainy or Sunny: Rainys
043. Britney or Christina: Britney oh she has sexy voice =P
044. TV or Youtube: Television coz i hate bufferings
045. Oprah or Tyra: Who are they?
046. McD's or KFC: Neither! I dont wanna get bombed inside these places >_<
047. Soccer or Tennis: Can i say badminton?
048. New York or San Francisco: Yuck no thx.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating: Rice
050. Drinking: Ribena
051. Wearing: Blackys
052. Im about to: Give up. In studying? XP
053. Listening to: *its like i checked into rehab~baby you're my diseaseee*

FAVOURITES:
054. Food: Something sweet, salty and sour will do =)
055. Drinks: Durian belanda! *hehe
056. Colors: Yellow, Orange, Brown... Black and Silver
057. Numbers: Ahh numbers. err 1, err 2, err 3?

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids: Yaya 2 daughters 1 son O_O
059. Want to get married: Shall you wait 10 more years
060. Life: Sexy and Hot wakaka
061. Goals: My own album >_> songs, and lyrics
062. Where will you live: Malaysia BOLEH! Maybe other countries...
063. Buy a house: Ya a comfortable one for my mummy
064. Buy a car: Wuu yeahh BMW and Mazda for mii

YOUR PARENTS:
065. Love your mom?: The most in the world.
066. Love your dad?: Okok la
067. Are they still together?: Hmm?

WHICH IS BETTER?:
068. Lips or Eyes: Oh GOD YOUR LOVELY EYES!!
069. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs.
070. Shorter or Taller: Shorter
071. Lean or Plump: Lean la plump yew
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: We need both k
073. Nice stomach or Nice Arms: We dont need stomach, so i'll opt for Arms
074. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive in a loud way; or Loud in a sensitive way? Aaaa
075. Hook-ups or Relationships: Relationships duhhh

HAVE YOU EVER:
076. Bungee-jumped: Nah
077. Shook hands with someone important: Dr. Mahathir =P
078. Kissed a stranger: No and never will you babboon
079. Drank bubbles: Bubbles!!
080. Lost glasses/contacts: I dont lose them, i break them.
081. Ran away from home: Nooooo i will miss my mummy
082. Liked someone younger: Hmm ya i guess so
083. Liked someone older: It happens less often but who knows?
084. Broken someone's heart: Rarely but occasionally
085. Been arrested: For what u bafoon?
086. Turned someone down: Wuu thats bad
087. Cried when someone died: I wanna but i just cant
088. Liked a friend: That's not what friends are for?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself: 360 degrees
090. Miracles: *There can be miracles... If you, believe~~~*
091. Love at First Sight: At first sight for the first time ohoh
092. Heaven: 2nd home for us Christians =)
093. Santa Clause: Ooh yeaaa when i was a little childdd
094. Sex on the first date: *We gotta take one step at a time~~~ there's no need to rush*
095. The More You Hate, The More You Love: Shitty wrong HATE X = Love
096. Angels: Oh ya i see them all the time...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: There's only space left for myself, sorry
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: Nope but i did prepare spare tyres
099. Do you believe in God?: Ya the One and Only God
100. Will you tag 10 people to continue this game?: Liang, KangHong, Bryan & Rick

At last, GAME OVER.

迷蝶

2009-01-08T11:46:00.002+08:00

僕は
あなたの心で　失われた
失われた　時は　取りもどせない　
嵐の後の虹
あなたに　見つけた
私の愛らしい天使
愛らしい花

私は昨夜嫌な夢を見ました
恐ろしい夢

でも

夢の後で衰退した
女の子現れた
その美女は
私は　理想の恋人

私によっては
私が決して失わないことが
祈る

それは
夢のような

No Tide Rises Without A Blow Of The Wind.

2009-01-07T19:28:00.005+08:00

And i thought i am able to let this proclivity pass.
But somehow, somewhat, somemore i am more attached to this.
I might get entangled and trapped in this thing.

I had been searching, and i think i have almost found all the answers.
But answers will not serve sufficient, as answers do not fill the empty spaces in the puzzle; in my heart.

Full answers do not always get full marks.
But reasonable answers do.

Everything happens for a reason.
If we try to understand that, an unfinished puzzle would be complete.

Its not all about understanding either, its about putting yourself in that situation as well.

Until i find the missing piece of my heart somewhere, in someone,
I will cease this pursuit.

And winds shall discontinue, while tides shall subdue.

Let Memories Be.

2009-01-06T14:12:00.005+08:00

Shadows never leave our sides,
but only in the presence of light.
Darkness exist in depths of nights,
but only once the flight of whites.

Its uncertainty, not aversion.

Why do words always run out?
Why do time always run out?

At times of impromptu no one is primed.
Sense of directions turns erroneous.
And conprehension ensued in flaw.

なぜこんなに　近くにいても　届けない　場所に

なぜこんなに　暖かい　のに　切ない　思いが...?

晴れた　空　われる　雲の隙間

涙　空　心　の　傷　と　隙間

愛しても　届かぬ　心　かなわぬ

I Hate This Part... (Part 2)

2009-01-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

~Continued from ah Hsien~***
I will, and We do not stress only on the phrase "Mouth Say, Little Brother Gay" or "Chui Gong, Lan Pa Song". We would also like to stress on the act of someone. There are many innocents, and for you know we do not stand alone. Do as you like and walk in the shadows, but we see through all your actions. No explaination is needed, as there is no need for us to be at loggerheads with a failure like you. Your mouth that emanates those rubbish everywhere you go and see puts you on the same level as dirt. Or maybe even worse, as low as an ant. Thats what you are, so accept it. Thx for listening you retarded. See you when you get your mind fixed.
***
PS:

For those who are innocent, please dont be off feeling -perasan- ! Its not you dont worry! =)

And for those who are the one i shoot, oh YES its you! Be more perasan! Dont let me worry! =)

Solitary Lament

2009-01-03T20:44:00.004+08:00

Our encounter was the dawn of my heart,
A new wind had been born from there.
When I notice that I'm not alone,
The distant moon will give me a smile.

At that moment,
the prelude I hear in my soul
Is a strange and nostalgic song.

But I'll become your strength
When I wish so,
My courage will fly.

At that moment,
the prelude overflowed and echoed
Is a song that overcomes time and space.

The past should not be feared
With hopes that fill the future
May happiness befall upon us?

We are not alone.
Everyone is born to meet someone
in this endless world and,

To search for love.

Im not crazy.

2009-01-02T23:55:00.004+08:00

I'm not crazy.
Maybe just a little obsessed.

I'm not crazy.
Maybe just a little aversed.

I'm not obsessed.
Maybe just a little inclined.

I'm not aversed.
Maybe just a little indifferent.

Get it?

The forecasts of the night sky are vague,
'cause clouds obscure views and augury.
But the distant stars
form astrology signs to guide the way.

And the stars whispered to me,
That
I missed u a little too much.

Final 2008. Ending to a new Beginning.

2008-12-31T23:47:00.011+08:00

My present ! Its ... Charco but i call it Charcoal. Still in search for a better name =) Any suggestions?

Last day of 2008 =( 3 ice creams? Where's da damn beer?!

Oh well i guess we can do well without beer. Ice creams will do =)

*
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***
**
*

Its time to embrace a whole new day. A whole new year.

Happy new year to all my family and friends !! I love ya all =D *Hugs and Kisses* LOL

Tengok orang nie... So happy have 3 aisu kurimu !! XD But its not his anyway wahaha!

And dont my new pet look cute in hoodie *Hehe

~~~

*+*

~~~

^#^

~~~

A whole new world~ ...

Lets listen, to the music of...

Fireworks.

Vacation Chronicle (Continued)

2008-12-30T20:26:00.005+08:00

25th December - Christmas Day Morning

*Took some shots for fun while waiting for all to get into their... Ice-skaters?

*Ice Skating till afternoon ~rm21 ea for holidays =( Expensive but somehow... Worthwhile =)

Aha! Cleaning man! On duty ohoho i got u on camera dude.

Christmas decorations are always so beautiful...

Err well... Traffic jam beside the beauty. 12am lol. A cold christmas for us up here. Not so hot down there anyway heees =D

26th December - Shopping at Ikea & TheCurve

Again beautiful decorations with people who seemed like they never took pictures before

And this! Lamb skin! Good for sleeping soundly *snore*snore

And this when we got back to the attic at home. Yellow sunlight, though unclear here...

*There were alot more things that we did on this day. Like... Watched a movie at the cinema in TheCurve called CathayCineplex. rm6 per person and tell you what~ You wouldn't want to go to StarCineplex in Kuching anymore. Ha! jkjk =P Its so damn cheap and the service + seats so comfortable. Lagipun the popcorn... whatthehell... rm5 = Kuching here rm10. Can watch 2 movies also cannot finish. *geram*

27-28th December - Cameron Highlands

Since the trip was almost 200km from town, it was TIRING.

Family picture at a waterfall downhill of Cameron~

And now I Solo. =)

Tea farm. So big.

Climbing to the top of Viewpoint!!! BOH tea hill !

People going down? Why wont u guys stay =D Comon its fresh air here man. Not like no air no air pulak

Err... its my mum.

The wind made me frown =( Show me a little sunshine ok? Let me smileeey

Cameron Highlands Part II - On the way home

Bee farm! You wont wanna get stung by those right?

Bee farms with strawberries! Best pic of the day coz its my gentle hand mwahaha dont vomit guys just kidding XP

29th December - Last day

Dinner before going to airport (recommended)

*Paper-Wrapped-Chicken* =D

And now im home! Wee hee hee

No one said welcome home to me? Sad =(

shhh....

...

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o kae ri na sai...?

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Day 3 - Bukit Tinggi

2008-12-23T13:51:00.003+08:00

Nice Sceneries

Flora dan Fauna

Fauna - Swans*

Kitty !!!

Places near the hotel~

Aha! Japanese Tea House

Angel's Trumpet in the Botanical Garden

The Pink Quill

Rabbit! My Love~

No photos taken in Sunway Lagoon since everyone was playing with water.

Cant wait to go back to Kuching. Missed lotsa stuff. So sad =(

Day One, Day Two

2008-12-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since i returned to my hometown. Actually all plan failed when the landslide occured near my relatives' dwelling place. But now, there is water, electricity and a detour. You wouldn't believe what really happened here. I'll spare the details for later. =)

Do you see the 'lencongan'? It means detour =D Houses down here are destroyed by the landslide which stretches its destructive area over here, around 50metres i guess??

From far, the landslide. An important experience.

And the fun starts here ! Guess what? U can actually find LOTS of Xmas trees here...

I really love that giant xmas tree XoXo

Performances! Nice dancing, nice music.

Somewhere in mid-valley. I feel so sakai, keep taking pictures oni...

This looks so cute. What to do? My first time here

Ah this is today! Times Square.

Umm this is... U know what la. A packet of condom. Found it in the drawer of the hotel my cousin's staying. There is supposed to be 3 in one packet, but there is only 1 left O_O Cool huh? I'll let you figure out the exciting part ^^

And i! Am so tired of walking. Standing. Sitting. Traffic is overwhelming till you can miss Kuching traffic. Nothing compared to this.. I bought clothes on the 1st day. Today i bought a new bag! My dream bag *hehe* jkjk~ And bought a new wallet. And some... *Secret* ~twinkle twinkle~ Went shopping around cousins around my age. It nice to ask for opinion when buying stuff =P And buying things we love. When my uncles and aunties saw what we bought, they said we have good taste =P For quality and price *hehe* We're unlike some people that totally ignore a word called - "Price".

Even so, my mum still said what i chose are ugly =.= My uncles and aunts said that we dont wear the clothes they buy. But the truth is, it's just plainly not to our liking. What my mum bought and said is nice, doesnt mean that i will agree to that. That is why we shouldnt bring our parents when buying things we like. But u can always bring them along, to cut costs =D And what d'you know, its my 1st shopping on my own, buying stuff i like. And i love it. Gonna do it another time XD

Tomorrow ill be going to KotaTinggi. And my no.1 motive is to... to... RABBITS !! My favourite animal! Aaaahhh gonna catch them catch them mwahaha!!! Okok calm down. Its just the beginning.

Loveswept

2008-12-16T12:45:00.001+08:00

It came as the wind
It went as the rain

Fast or Slow
It seemed so plain

To be jovial
And have that blissful singing
To be normal
And have that wishful thinking

And how oh how
Will the late night depart?
And when oh when
Will the new dawn arrive?

So that, it will be adjourned &
This sweeping statement shall be a new beginning.

* i break my heart 4 u *

Indolence

2008-12-14T20:57:00.003+08:00

Sluggish internet line has incurred impatience.
And impatience has bring about indolence.

While you're feeling negligent, lying down on your comfy bed might help. Remember to lie in a 'star' shape; or hugging your favourite pillow, facing the ceiling as time passes. And what d'you know, time flies just by doing that =) *Do a little thinking* Uh no *Do lotsa thinking*

Its mid-term examination tomorrow. Worry, or worry not?
Look at the time!

Dream on, baby.

The Truth.

2008-12-06T20:55:00.004+08:00

I know i shouldn't say this but, i dont like being constantly bugged. If not i'll sue 'you' with the charges of spiritual harassment. You think you are so cool is it? Don't think everyone likes to be with you. So i suggest you SHUT THE FUCK UP, and stop bugging us.

Dont be

showing off
act pity
dont want face
pretending

Don't think you can steal all the glory. Let me tell you, I dont WHATSOEVER mind! So just go on with your 'personality' and be what you be. Just don't start shooting your 'stars' at me. I CANT stand it. Thanks.

You think nobody knows what you are up to? Oh let me think for a second, NOT! If you think everyone is so gullible, you shall be envisaging an end. And just for revenging and avenging my dearest brader, no matter before, now, or onwards, -fuck off- from taking someone's position. And what i am talking about is in something called, 'relationship'. Good you know.

We see it all through. So try to understand us. You guys are so fucking annoying, so leave us alone, and get your own company.

My favourite quote of the time: (which suits NOW well)

"We only go out with people we are comfortable with"

(***** & ****** 2008)

最高の片思い (The Greatest Unrequited Love)

2008-12-06T11:51:00.005+08:00

いつもすごく自由なあなたは今
この雨の中どんな夢を追いかけているの
どこかで孤独と戦いながら
涙も我慢してるんだろう

一人でも大丈夫と
あなたも私と同じ
遠回りばかりだけどなぜかこの道が好きで

*幸せだとか嬉しい時は
あなたの事を思い出すから
色鮮やかな季節はきっと
この想い届けてくれる

憧れとか好きとか嫌いだとか
そういう気持ちだとはどこか違うんだけれど
あなたのその美(うつく)しい流(なが)れに
私も乗せてほしい

曖昧な言葉よりも
簡単な約束より
欲しいのは手のぬくもり
そして二人だけの時

**もしもあなたが悲しいのなら
明日が少し見えないのなら
頼って欲しい私はきっと
これからもあなたを想(おも)う

*幸せだとか嬉しい時は
あなたの事を思い出すから
色鮮やかな季節はきっと
この想い届けてくれる

Saiunkoku Monogatari [彩雲国物語] ED
Sachi Tainaka [田井中彩智]

TagTagTag

2008-12-04T15:11:00.005+08:00

8 People to Tag

From my friends list: Liang, Sue, Stella, Rick, KangHong, Hsien, Jo, Bryan, Brendan, Alison

8 things im passionate about:

Car, Handphone, Laptop, Clothings, Accesories...

8 things i say too often:

cibai
lanjiao
fuck you
what the hell/fuck
ngai di
en
yaho/yalo/yala/yameh/yakah
if not

8 movies i have watched recently:

环珠格格 I / II / III
法政先锋 I
Twilight

8 songs i can listen to again and again:

下雨天　(Rainy Day)
最高の片思い (The GREATEST Unrequited Love)
Undelete
What You Got
Crush
愛しい人へ (For The One I Love)
Because You Live
I Swear

8 things i learnt in the past year:

Perseverance
Giving up
Compromising
Controlling anger
Distance
Striving to be the best
Caring
To let

8 places i like going in Kuching:

Spring, Boulevard, JalanSong, Airport, The Golden Triangle, Cineplex, Grandma's house

Gali Kubur

2008-12-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

The wheel of fortune spun twist of fate, today.

Spin ar spin
Spun until dead end

Saya pun gali kubur
Dengan quicklynya
Tapi dont know ada jump in onot

Spin ar spin
Spun until exit

Saya pun letakkan shovel
Dengan quicklynya
I run towards it

God bless.
I need to take good care of myself in future.
And pretend hardworking.
So wont lose body.
And people will keep wishing all the best to me.
God bless.

*Inspirated by evil group the "Five"*

予汝之

2008-11-30T01:53:00.006+08:00

*
**
***
山也迢迢水也迢迢
山水迢迢路遥遥
盼过昨朝又盼今朝
盼来盼去魂也消

梦也渺渺人也渺渺
天若有情天也老
欲不成欲讹不成讹
风雨潇潇愁多少?
愁多少?
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*

Tea

2008-11-28T13:01:00.005+08:00

Drink tea everyday, its good for health. =D

DayDream* - Beautiful Lights and Hardworking mosquitoes

VOGUE Cafe
=) Xmas Delight (=

A second its blue...

Another its gone !
Magic? =P

Summer Sem

2008-11-26T18:16:00.004+08:00

A whole new beginning !

Nah just kidding its 3rd sem. =) We're now a part of swinburne. And there were, is and will be things that drives us closer or furthur from whatsoever. Mwahahaha so the vacant times will be used for enjoyment !

"Life Is For Enjoyment"

But there is still monotonous times )= We have a lecturer who is obsessed with locking the dorr; one who is darn repetitive and crapful; and one who is like a sissy with gender awareness problems. Oh my godddddd why have u sent to me these peopleeee Aaaahhhhhhhhrhhrhhrhhh~~~

About this summer semester, there is much to expect to, and little at the same time. I foresee empty holes, unfilled voids (most probably during the time i'll be gone temporarily).

Life is always fair - good and bad things come subsequently. One after another. Good things, you wouldnt understand and feel what i feel anyway, so i shall leave that out. Regarding the bad things... You might just as well take that as growing 'hope' in autumn. Ya, that shall do. -.-

What i wished for was realised.
And what i didnt wished for was realised too.
In a good way.
In a bad way.

And i thought it would felt like summer.

SE c905i

2008-11-24T00:05:00.005+08:00

People might have crave and craze over cameras, but i have a different taste. =P

Ladies and Gentlemen, i present you the Great c905i !!

And i shall welcome its touchdown on Kuching! Smile everyone =) =) =)

Not like that, smile like this (= (= (=

Ah whatever smile all you want XP

+ Slide in style (*_*)

+ Pose in style (*_*)

+ Capture moments of life in style (*_*)

Colors available : Black ; Silvery White ; Copper Gold

I cant find pictures of Copper Gold )= )= )=

But hopefully

lets pray that

You'll have a chance to see it on my hands. (= (= (=

Ah~ I pray for a shower of blessings XP

Not to be greedy hehe... I just, really really really really really wan. So does that makes it a need?

U Hear Me?

2008-11-22T23:17:00.003+08:00

Holidays are reaching its end.

Nothing happened.
Alot happened.

HAHAHA !

Guess what?

I'm not telling.

Its not that big anyway.

But its big in a way.

Say what?

I cant hear you~

Speak louder.

And Think softer.

That should do. =)

Crocodile Farm

2008-11-21T07:49:00.005+08:00

The day started with a meeting at our usual place, at Doctor Khoo there ! =D And this is what i saw ! A cute but poor little kitten =( I wan but sure not allowed by my mum *sigh* Lemme tell u a story: Doctor Khoo said ever since she rescued this little kitten from being chased by stray dogs, it kept coming back to her house XD Even though Doctor Khoo's mum keep chasing it away Hahaha ! Doctor Khoo is such an 'animal lover' ...? Maybe not as Marlene =P Marlene's pet cat died when we called to ask her for tea, i mean... kena langgar. Uhhh Marlene now very sad, cat kena own father langgar haha. But doctors are still monitoring. Miracle it did not die.

Cat@!!

Ok here's the Crocodile farm, and pictures can do most of the talking now...

Lizard... or Dinosaur...?

Omg what type of turtle is this... or... Tortoise...?

Cute Owl !! And i thought it should be sleeping during the day =/

Owl metamorphosis ! The flight of an eagle~ Uhh... its still perching. Duh

Now meet the fearsome bearrr!!! RAWRRRR! "noo dont eat us"

Aww beautiful peacock doesnt wanna show its feathers

A crocodile which can crack your butt into two.. Though its already in twos anyway =P

Deers! Its sad some animals arent that active =(

A naughty turkey which followed around, but behind the fence. Watch it before i turn u into a cooked turkey *Sluurrp hehe

Fishes in a pond

King... of the fishes...?

And now its time for some sceneries... Its damn idyllic, but can be so monotonous too =P Ah so contradicting

Romantic right? They took 'Stella and Mike' s place =( Ha just fooling around before 3pm which is, crocodile feeding time =)

And after feeding time it started to rain... Looks like these amphibians are more active during wetty times.

And aren't these monkeys cute. We can actually FEED them !

RABBITS ! Omg my favourite among all animals ! I'll go KL and steal some back hehe... (jk)

After crocodile farm, me and Hsien went home. But before that everyone tried out manual cars o-o *wink wink* Then we went to hijau and drink tea, Marlene came a little later. We so long dint see MArlene lo... Limteh is a fun thing =D must enjoy it while you're young *hehehe*

Chains Of The Heart

오랜만이다

너를 사랑하니까

I Alone

First Love 初恋 Hatsukoi Cheotsarang

Till death do feelings shall not parT

Tired 疲れた

Love <3

Relaxation

RO Private

Separation and Migration

九月三日 （木曜日）

九月一日 (火曜日)

八月三十一日 （月曜日）

八月二十九日 （土曜日）

八月二十八日 （金曜日）

八月二十七日 （木曜日）

お久し振り

19 is my number =)

METHOD_METAFALICA/.

Too Late Forever

Winner, or Loser..?

1 Litre of Tears

Movies

My Distraught.

SOHAI

Silenced

Reminisces In Real Time

In time.

Night Fever

Discretion to Decision

Fragments of Dreams - 夢の欠片

Lost, and Found.

Sick.

Don't remind me.

Flamesy

To SRC

Permai Trip 18-19 April 2009

Inspiration.

Collection Update

Door of miracles?

Window Glass

爱河

Life Code Translation

Melting, not Rotting?

Ocean Size Love

Taggg

まだ愛して．．．か？

Nodame Cantabile

貴方の為に生きてくれ…

さまざまな色

Harisen.

Happy Birthday~

Dreams.

Way Back Into Love.

Farewell, my friend.

What kinds of monster are you?

Valentine story-tellings

Good and Bad.

Reunion.

只有蝴蝶，但随风而逝了

Jo & Sue's 19th Birthday

Someone's watching over me

Dreaming Memory

Fireworks.

Gatecrasher.

Tag by Jo-Ann

The Family Year Of Love.

Eyes On Me.

What passes with the wind?

Wuuu Interesting.

Genesis.

A Babbling Bumbling Bunch of Babboons!

Dream.

Face it. Again

Face it.

Shout.

Taggie by Hsien.

迷蝶

No Tide Rises Without A Blow Of The Wind.

九月三日　（木曜日）

八月三十一日　（月曜日）

八月二十九日　（土曜日）

八月二十八日　（金曜日）

八月二十七日　（木曜日）